MY XMAS

MERYY XMAS TO MY DEAR FRIENDS THAT CELEBRATE THIS SPECIAL OCCASION..First time we celebrated Xmas in KK.Kind of weird coz only me and my family there.On that Christmas morning, only me and my MOM went to church to pray.My elder brother went to church on Christmas eve.My young and yougest brother send me and MOM to church and they plan to go also but it was too late already.So they just wait us outside the church's gate.

We went back home and MOM cooked.....chicken soup, sup tulang,curry,mix vegetables,sapi masak kicap...Niza came around 6pm alone.Niza gave me a gift from Sarawak...it's a pencil box with Sarawakian craft and a food.We both chat and watch Transformers movie.I watched that movie over and over and still not boring to watch it again and again.........Then, that nite my cousins from Inanam came and we spend that time talking coz it's been a long time MOM didn't chat with them...It was a nice Christmas even only my friend Niza and my cousin came to my house that day.Hope by next year and year ahead,I will have many friends come to my house during Xmas day.

I went back on 28th December with my twins sis.She can't stay till New Year coz she got a lot of work to be done.So I accompany her and celebrate this new year with her.Actually, we both didn't celebrate.Just stay at home,pray and watch tv.Maybe MOM and other sibling will pray and prepare something tonite.Another year will come.So many things happen this year with me and my family.But I'm happy that my family is far from all the bad things.Oh..God..I wish thing is simple like that.But........I leave it all in a hands of God.

981 REUNION-10 YEARS (1998-2008)

Finally there will be a reunion for 981 class.Im so much happy for this reunion.There is a plan before but tak menjadi...Now after 10 years, finally Elsa and others set a reunion for all of us 981 class.Can't wait for this reunion.Some might come and some may not able to come...But its okay if some can't make it.We all have our other commitment in life...

We all grow and lots of things changes.Our responsibility also changes.We have other commitment in life.So we have to concentrate and be the best for our responsibility and commitment...As for me,still single like this, sure a lot of fun stuff I can do...hehehehe..I'm happy with my other friends.Some married already,had a children.Oh, I'm so happy with them all eve I'm still mingle...

Can't wait to meet all my 981 friends.Our memories will last forever and ever till the end of the day.

ANUGERAH PERKHIDMATAN CEMERLANG (APC) for 2007

I brought my sister to see me received my Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang (APC) for 2007 on that day...I want her to see me coz she is the only family member I got in Lahad Datu..If my dear father still around....He will be so proud of his daughter...I knew he was so proud.

Pose outside the hall after the ceremony.

My twin sister Cristina took a chance to pose with my certificate.

(Sijil Perkhidmatan Cemerlang)

(L-R) Rohana Maruji, Sajalinah Wasimin (teaching in SK Sepagaya now) and Me.

There are 4 of us received this APC from my school. The other one didn't came coz she had gone back to West Malaysia.

The ceremony was held in Sekolah Menengah Sains Lahad Datu on 28th August 2008 at 8.00 a.m. One of my good friend, David Sipilis Mathius of SK Tanjung Labian, Lahad Datu also received Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang (APC). I missed to take some photo with him coz he gone back early that day.

SCHOOL HOLIDAY

Yes, it's school holiday!!!Hoooraayyyy....I felt so much happy. Never thought it's the end of school period and time for enjoy the holiday.When I think back again for what happen over this year in my school,OMG...so many things happen.A good and sad moment.The easy and the hardest things happened through this year in school. But what's on my mind is.......I have to face things that happen. I must get over it or else I will be in trouble...But so far, I'm so much happy, I can face everything and things goin very well.Thank GOD!!!

One of my closest friend in school,...Dg. Sarmila Sidek (Ila) will transfer to Pahang, following her husband who live and work there as a businessman. Hope things will be fine with you there and your new school....

Tomorrow I will goin back to KK early around 7 am with Ila.My twin sister also goin back with me. I know my sis do miss MOM so much and all our 4 brothers in KK. Twin sis never been far away from MOM, but since things that happened to my family, she have to stay here and work. I understand how sis felt, coz I also felt the same when I miss my family back in college life last time.MOM didn't know that sis is following me go back by tomorrow. Indeed MOM still didn't know that I will going back by tomorrow. But I think my bro Carlos, will tell MOM once he get back from work. Coz my bro Carlos called me today during my meeting if it's true I will goin back by next week. Coz last nite I told them will go back by next week. I couldn't lie to them when they asked seriously,..so I honestly told my bro that tomorrow I will go back....YESSS!!!

Hope we will have a safe journey back...
MAY GOD BLESS OUR JOURNEY..AMEN...

ALL SOULS DAY

This is MY DEAR FATHER's grave. It was finished built on 28 November 2007

We held a prayer for my FATHER's grave on 02nd December 2007

I went to visit my father's grave on 01st of Nov for All Souls Day.It

was raining that day in the afternoon.I was so afraid and scared of meeting people that I don't want to see and face them.But my twin sister was so strong and I got my strength from her.We clean my father's grave and put in some beautiful flowers.But on that day we only gave father a yellow daisy. I really miss my father so very much.Everyone will miss the person they lost so much.I called my brother and tell him everything we done for father's grave.And MOM cried when I called her at nite.MOM alone have to face everything like this and MOM do miss her dear mother(my grandma).I understand how my MOM felt when she never met her mother for 33 years...So that nite MOM prepare everything to celebrate ALL SOULS DAY.Me and my twin sister, just lit some candles and have our prayers.

OUR CHORAL SPEAKING TEAM

WITH OUR EX-STUDENTS IN SMS (SEKOLAH MENENGAH SAINS) LAHAD DATU.

FACES OF THE CHAMPION........

WE ARE THE CHAMPION........

FOR CHORAL SPEAKING COMPETITION

(PRIMARY SCHOOL)

INTER LAHAD DATU DISTRICT (FROM 2004,2005,2007 & 2008)

IN LOVE........

It's not easy try to love someone.I thought it was so easy. I saw my friends falling in love,see how happy they are.Talking bout their loved one.I was jealous with them, but I was so happy coz I can share their happiness.I hope I can fall in love someday, just like them.

Finally, I had a chance to fall in love......to love someone.For sure I do love him so much.Honest and true with him.I want to know the feeling on loving someone.Now, I know the feeling already.But it's not as happy as I thought.Indeed it's so hard.I try so hard to love him, but in the end, I'm the one left alone with broken heart.He left me without saying goodbye.Left me alone wondering,what will happen to my life after this.So much hurt and pain to think bout this.But, I have to move on no matter how hard it is for me.I felt so shame to my family coz I thought I can be happy with him..........but in the end, it was just a dream.A dream that will never come true.Then I realize and woke up, I felt broken heart.It taught me so much in loving someone.I learned that it is not easy try to love someone.If you try to be true and honest with him, you never know if he will be true to you also.So, you just have to be careful in loving someone.

Now, I'm so much happy to know about love.Now, I'm alone.....single......hehehehe.....But its okay with that.I accept that with open heart.Now, have to be careful when try to love someone.......hehehe.It was a nice experience to love someone.Felt like in heaven when you are with someone you love.But be careful, don't dream too much coz you never know when you will wake up from the dream.I'm so much happy coz after what I have been through, I'm still stronger and tough.But deep inside my heart, only GOD knows how I really felt.

It's been more than a year after he left me.Still I haven't found a new one.I realize, so much things left undone.I have to do many things for my family.So many plan to do.Have to be careful when try to love someone.Search into his heart.Know him better.Take as much time with him.

I'm happy with my life now.Even sometimes, I felt lonely and need someone close to me.But what can I do?Still haven't found one.......but I'm not a desperate to find someone......hehehehe.Anyway, I'm happy with all my friends that already find their happiness with someone.........THANK GOD for everything.

PPSMI

Next week, Jemaah Nazir will come over to my school for PPSMI(Pengajaran & Pembelajaran Sains & Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris)...............oh is a headache for me.I have to make a report on that.In fact, I have to do the report since January, and I haven't done anything yet.Oh, no!!!I have to do the report no matter what.Before next week, I must complete everything.For NAZIR, what most important is they want to look for documentation.So, I have to prepare well for this report.

I have to make a good plan and strategy to finish this report.Otherwise, I will be in big trouble and I don't know what to answer to the NAZIR in case they want to look over the file.This is what I have to do to finish the report.

1. Be cool and calm down, Len........

2. List down important things in the file that you should do.

3. Start making your report from January........

4. Give the exact date and day for the PPSMI meeting.

5. Check and make a letter.

6. Bind your report for every month.

7. In case you got problem and didn't understand, go and discuss with your

senior.

8. Check your report in case if you missed anything........then you can pass up your report.

p/s : Have to follow this step in case I want my report to be finish.

MY SCHOOL........

I'm so proud with my school now........SK SAHABAT 16.A school that is far from town.....about 130km from Lahad Datu town.If you want to come here, you have to take private car and it will cost you about RM15.I've been teaching in this school for almost 7 years.Wow, I just couldn't believe that I have been teaching for 7 years now?

Oh,it reminds me of my friends.Angah wrote something for her comment on my blog.Im so much happy.Thanx angah.And not forget to you, Elsa.Always there for me.Angah reminds me of our sweet memory in Tandek, Kota Marudu.We woke up early around 5am and went to nearby river to have our bath.It's so funny coz we share the river with buffalo.Can you imagine, you use the water and the buffalo is just near there with you?Hehehehe.How can I forget that memory, Angah?It's still in my memory.We finished our bath and head our way back.On our journey back, Zube were stuck in a mud(that mud is actually the buffalo's najis)with her right leg inside.She tried hard to pull her leg out with her slipper but she couldn't.So, she just left her her slipper inside that mud.I couldn't bear to see her without any slipper.So, with a courage, I put my hand inside the mud and try to find her slipper.Oh, my God!When I write this story, my imagination is on that memory.So nice to think of it.I hold Zube slipper and brought it home.But then the same situation happen again.But this time in school in SK Tandek, Kota Marudu.We want to go back home after activity during night time.It was raining that night.Again Zube stuck her slipper in a mud(but this time is not the buffalo's najis).Then again, I pull her slipper out of the mud again.So funny to think again bout this.But because of that memory, Angah still remember me and didn't foget bout it.Thanx Angah.I will always remember our sweety memory in Tandek, Kota Marudu.

SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!

It's school holidays for this week.But im stuck here in this school, in my apartment.Alone.My housemate already gone back to their hometown.Its coz im involved with Pilihanraya as 'Polling Clerk' (kerani mengundi) and then PTK examination by tomorrow.Haven't study anything.Maybe I just answer what I can answer.But still I hope to score with IV(highest mark).But if I didn't study how can I score?.....hehehehe.

I'm now in my balcony, write something for my blog after a long time.In a mean time, search for a question for PTK tomorrow.I used to be alone in this apartment with 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms.For sure Im in master bedroom.Oh, don't worry, tomorrow I will goin back to KK wit my friend, Ila.She will drive her car, Myvi.I think by night time we both will reach KK.

I do really miss my family.My family now moved to KK.It was on 19th February 2008.It was in such a hurry we decide to leave Lahad Datu and moved to KK.I just couldn't believe what has just happen and why we decide to move to KK.Indeed need to go far away from KK and far away from Sabah.Now left me here in Lahad Datu with my twin sister.Only two of us left here.My twin sister work in town and she live in a house with 2 other friends.I'm so worried bout my sister.She never been far away from my MOM.MOM worried so much about her.Will she be fine there living alone?MOM didnt worried much bout me living alone here in FELDA, coz she knew I have been alone since I was 18.That time I was in college to be a teacher.But at first,MOM also worried bout me.But as time passing by, now MOM used to it.All my family have gone to KK.Indeed, I just couldn't believe my hometown is now in KK.Time pass by so fast.

I want to write something in this blog why my family have moved to KK.But I think I need time to tell my story.It's a story that so hard to tell and write.It need courage to write the story.But I will write the story.Coz I want people to know and share my story.I'm happy with other people's life.But the story of my life is so hard to tell.But I want to move on and be strong.Coz my family depend their life on me.Their life is on my hand.I can't just let them slip away.I promised my FATHER already that no matter what, I will take care of my family.Evey nite, I'm on my knees pray that GOD will give me strength so I can face everything with open heart.And I'm so grateful coz I still move on even deep inside my heart it felt so much hurt.Only God knows how I feel.Someday, I will write my sadness story.