Friday, May 02, 2008

IN LOVE........

It's not easy try to love someone.I thought it was so easy. I saw my friends falling in love,see how happy they are.Talking bout their loved one.I was jealous with them, but I was so happy coz I can share their happiness.I hope I can fall in love someday, just like them.
Finally, I had a chance to fall in love......to love someone.For sure I do love him so much.Honest and true with him.I want to know the feeling on loving someone.Now, I know the feeling already.But it's not as happy as I thought.Indeed it's so hard.I try so hard to love him, but in the end, I'm the one left alone with broken heart.He left me without saying goodbye.Left me alone wondering,what will happen to my life after this.So much hurt and pain to think bout this.But, I have to move on no matter how hard it is for me.I felt so shame to my family coz I thought I can be happy with him..........but in the end, it was just a dream.A dream that will never come true.Then I realize and woke up, I felt broken heart.It taught me so much in loving someone.I learned that it is not easy try to love someone.If you try to be true and honest with him, you never know if he will be true to you also.So, you just have to be careful in loving someone.
Now, I'm so much happy to know about love.Now, I'm alone.....single......hehehehe.....But its okay with that.I accept that with open heart.Now, have to be careful when try to love someone.......hehehe.It was a nice experience to love someone.Felt like in heaven when you are with someone you love.But be careful, don't dream too much coz you never know when you will wake up from the dream.I'm so much happy coz after what I have been through, I'm still stronger and tough.But deep inside my heart, only GOD knows how I really felt.
It's been more than a year after he left me.Still I haven't found a new one.I realize, so much things left undone.I have to do many things for my family.So many plan to do.Have to be careful when try to love someone.Search into his heart.Know him better.Take as much time with him.
I'm happy with my life now.Even sometimes, I felt lonely and need someone close to me.But what can I do?Still haven't found one.......but I'm not a desperate to find someone......hehehehe.Anyway, I'm happy with all my friends that already find their happiness with someone.........THANK GOD for everything.