ALL SOULS DAY.....MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACEFULLY, DAD........

It's the second month since our beloved father died last month(o2nd September)and today also is the day for ALL SOUL'S DAY.The exact date father died.I have to go back to lit a candle on father's grave.No matter what I have to go back since it's still school day.But I felt so happy I do have a chance to be with my beloved family and we all gather together went to father's grave.We clean and make sure everything is fine and great on father's grave.So sad and hurt this year Christmas gonna spend without our beloved father.I do hope and pray MOM will always be strong to face whatever happen on the future.I will try my very best take good care of my beloved family.Coz I thought I have a big responsible and I'm ready to accept it all.
Felt so hurt and seems like a glance to know father is not around.I still feel deep inside me something that still didn't come out.I need to shout it out.The burden of sadness is still inside me.I didn't let my beloved know about father.I don't have the courage to let him know.If he care for me much, sure I will let him know, but seems like it's not what I'm expecting, then I think I should keep it to myself.I will let him know someday.
My friend Elsa are now busy prepare for her wedding ceremony.I'm sure her wedding will be more cheerful,merrier and more grand.She always knew what is the best for her.I'm happy and glad for her and wish I will attend her glorious day........
I still remember Elsa dedicate a song and the video "Dance With My Father" by Luther Vandross.It's a lovely song,and 'Sa', I do love the song so very much.Thank you, thank you so much.On the same day also, I heard on the radio (TraXXFM), there is a listener dedicate the same song to all the listeners who lost their beloved father.Then I felt my heart pounding.I was so concentrate listening to the song and felt father was in front of me.His lovely face, smile and laugh.........Oh, God!I will always remember that.
It remind me again that I didn't spend much of my time with father before he died.I felt so hurt, sad and damn angry with that.But I know there is nothing I can do.I realize my mistakes and turn to MOM to make things clear.I have to take care MOM so much and our family.I promise no matter what I will always by MOM side.

p/s DAD.......MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE.I promise you DAD that I will take care MOM and our family.No matter what, I will try my very best to make everyhting fine.I pray for father heavenly to help me become a strong person and much in love for everyone.AMEN........