It's our 3rd anniversary today.I can't believe I have known this guy for 3 years since 2003.It's so nice that we both hang on with our relationship even it is so hard to believe.We both face so many problems and things might not seem very well, but because we both have the same feeling towards each other and we both believe in our love...........it makes us both still hold on with this love.I'm so proud to know and to have your love in my life.I can't believe again to have your love and I can't imagine to have someone else in my life.
I'm not so sure if my beloved remember that today is our anniversary..............I guess because of his work, he might forget this special day.It's okay then.I wish you do remember this special day of our life.At least, as for me, I will never ever forget about this special day in my life.
I wish my beloved is always in good health and happy always.I wish you a NEVER ENDING HAPPINESS.GOD BLESS YOU all the way through.Even without me, I know you can move on with your love.Thank you so much for all the love you have given to me.
I'm so happy last night that I received a call..........a birthday wish from BETH.She sang birthday song with her beloved.I'm so happy.Thank you so much.
p/s Got a nice bracelet and bag from my beloved students of 6A(INISIATIF) for my birthday present.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY FOR TWIN SISTERS (CRISTINA AND HELENA)
It's our birthday today..........HAPPY 27th BIRTHDAY for my beloved twin sister, Cristina and for me also.I felt so happy that we both still live til today.Call home and talk to DADMOM.......said THANK YOU for all the love and care they gave us both.Without them, we both are not who we are today.THANX DADMOM.GOD BLESS YOU BOTH.
I do wish that everything will be just fine for me and my beloved sister no matter how hard it is.She is the only and the best sister I ever had, and I am so glad and proud that she is part of me and my TWIN.Sometimes, so hard to think and believe that I was born into this world with someone.......my twin.She done so much for me.........she always there in my time of need.I don't know what my life will be without her.And I wanna thank you because for such a long til today.............she is with me.
I wish and hope that this year will bring so much pleasure and good things ahead of us.May we both will face everything so fine and happy no matter how hard it is.I wish that my beloved is fine and happy with his life there.I know you can manage each and everything without me there for you.I wish someone will be with you soon and someday.I'm sure of that.
I do wish that everything will be just fine for me and my beloved sister no matter how hard it is.She is the only and the best sister I ever had, and I am so glad and proud that she is part of me and my TWIN.Sometimes, so hard to think and believe that I was born into this world with someone.......my twin.She done so much for me.........she always there in my time of need.I don't know what my life will be without her.And I wanna thank you because for such a long til today.............she is with me.
I wish and hope that this year will bring so much pleasure and good things ahead of us.May we both will face everything so fine and happy no matter how hard it is.I wish that my beloved is fine and happy with his life there.I know you can manage each and everything without me there for you.I wish someone will be with you soon and someday.I'm sure of that.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
SCHOOL'S HOLIDAY
It's school's holiday (for one week :13th-19th March 2006)and I felt so happy with that.Coz I can spend much time with my beloved family and I can take a rest for all the work that gave me headache.For this holiday, I don't want to think too much about what happen in school, my work or whatever.I just want to be happy and live my life the way I want to.
For this holiday.....I just stay at home and help my MOM doing housework because MOM need to take a rest.But it doesn't mean I can't come online and talk with my beloved!But I know......it's not that easy asking my beloved to come online so we both can speak easily.He was so commitment with his work........if I ask him to come online.....it will disturb him with his work..........
If my beloved come online and we can talk...it means it's our "VALENTINE'S DAY".Even we didn't have much time talking with each other...I'm happy as long as he is happy even I miss my time talking with him.I knew he do understand what I felt towards him.I will enjoy my time this holiday.........if I have a time.....then I will talk with my beloved...........
For this holiday.....I just stay at home and help my MOM doing housework because MOM need to take a rest.But it doesn't mean I can't come online and talk with my beloved!But I know......it's not that easy asking my beloved to come online so we both can speak easily.He was so commitment with his work........if I ask him to come online.....it will disturb him with his work..........
If my beloved come online and we can talk...it means it's our "VALENTINE'S DAY".Even we didn't have much time talking with each other...I'm happy as long as he is happy even I miss my time talking with him.I knew he do understand what I felt towards him.I will enjoy my time this holiday.........if I have a time.....then I will talk with my beloved...........
Friday, March 10, 2006
A BLOG FOR MY BELOVED........
Today I have a chance again talking with my beloved..........and yesterday, my beloved told me that his left arm got hurt and there is 10 stitches on his elbow.I was damn hurt and sad when he told me about that.I wish I was there with him.......so I can take care of him and can help him.But he said he is fine and he wants me to be strong like him.Indeed I can be strong the way he wants me to but I felt so sad.I will try to be strong as he wants me to.
He told me today why he always didn't want to say 'I MISS U' everytime that we finish talking.And he told me honestly that he only wanted to check how was my reaction if he dont want to say 'I MISS YOU'......and my reaction was more than his thinking.I was agressive and angry with him.He only wanted to make me angry.But I was happy he told me his reason.I thought he was angry with me since 'ALLY'.He also said that ALLY is also his friend.
I was truly happy that finally he said........"I REALLY MISS YOU SWEETY".......it's like I was dreaming when I heard what he said.Now, I truly felt strong feeling on him.Nothing could ever change the way we both felt towards each other.
I told my beloved about my blog.........this blog.He only read my blog last time on the day of 'ALLY'.And today, I gave my beloved this address.I do hope he can read all, so he will know how I felt towards this life and to let him know how much his love mean so much to me.My dear even asked me not to show to anybody his name.........keep his name inside my heart.I want the whole world know how Shikra mean so much.
Okay, my dear........Shikra.Hope you can understand how much my life with you and may what we both wish for can be the way we want to.
I DO LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
He told me today why he always didn't want to say 'I MISS U' everytime that we finish talking.And he told me honestly that he only wanted to check how was my reaction if he dont want to say 'I MISS YOU'......and my reaction was more than his thinking.I was agressive and angry with him.He only wanted to make me angry.But I was happy he told me his reason.I thought he was angry with me since 'ALLY'.He also said that ALLY is also his friend.
I was truly happy that finally he said........"I REALLY MISS YOU SWEETY".......it's like I was dreaming when I heard what he said.Now, I truly felt strong feeling on him.Nothing could ever change the way we both felt towards each other.
I told my beloved about my blog.........this blog.He only read my blog last time on the day of 'ALLY'.And today, I gave my beloved this address.I do hope he can read all, so he will know how I felt towards this life and to let him know how much his love mean so much to me.My dear even asked me not to show to anybody his name.........keep his name inside my heart.I want the whole world know how Shikra mean so much.
Okay, my dear........Shikra.Hope you can understand how much my life with you and may what we both wish for can be the way we want to.
I DO LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
Saturday, February 25, 2006
WHAT SORT OF MAGIC IS IN YOUR SOUL?
Your power is of the land of the dead. You can
bring a dead person to life and have them on
your side against anyone you want. You have
the power of the darkside, but yet it could
be used for healing your injured friends.
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EVERY DAY IS VALENTINE'S DAY........
I was so happy today that I have a chance talking with my beloved.
Every time I talk with him, I felt so ease and comfortable.He really makes me felt like in heaven.He was so much busy with his work and I couldn't really have a chance to talk with him.But today, it is our lucky day that we both can spent our time talking.I have sent my beloved a lovely Valentine's card.I think that the card is so special and it mean so much.The card is chosen by one of my best friend, BETH with her beloved.I asked her to find me a lovely Valentine's card for my beloved.Thank you so much, BETH.I do really love that card so much.And I really glad my beloved really love that card so much also.So, SHIKRA told me today that everytime we both have a chance talking online, then, it will be our VALENTINE'S DAY.
I felt so happy he said that......and on my card for him, I wrote the meaning of his name......and he can't believe what I wrote and he seems very surprised with that......
I'm so happy for what I did to him.At least I know that I am very honest with him and I don't want him to miss every single part of my life and the love that he should have.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOREVER........EVEN FAR I KNEW WE WILL STILL BE TOGETHER
Every time I talk with him, I felt so ease and comfortable.He really makes me felt like in heaven.He was so much busy with his work and I couldn't really have a chance to talk with him.But today, it is our lucky day that we both can spent our time talking.I have sent my beloved a lovely Valentine's card.I think that the card is so special and it mean so much.The card is chosen by one of my best friend, BETH with her beloved.I asked her to find me a lovely Valentine's card for my beloved.Thank you so much, BETH.I do really love that card so much.And I really glad my beloved really love that card so much also.So, SHIKRA told me today that everytime we both have a chance talking online, then, it will be our VALENTINE'S DAY.
I felt so happy he said that......and on my card for him, I wrote the meaning of his name......and he can't believe what I wrote and he seems very surprised with that......
I'm so happy for what I did to him.At least I know that I am very honest with him and I don't want him to miss every single part of my life and the love that he should have.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOREVER........EVEN FAR I KNEW WE WILL STILL BE TOGETHER
Friday, February 24, 2006
IS IT LOVE?...OBSESSION?...OR JUST ANOTHER CRUSH?
It's love! You are actually in love with this
person! I am 80 or more %
positive they love
you back! If you havn't already tell the
person you love them! They just might tell
you the same back!
Congrats! Its not
obsession, even though people may say it is,
its not another crush, it is actually LOVE!
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its not another crush, it is actually LOVE!
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Friday, February 17, 2006
11-th ANNUAL SPORTS DAY IS OVER!
I felt so happy that the event for sports is over.So glad that I don't have to think too much.Felt so tired but it's okay.At least everything going on very fine even we felt so much pressure and tension.
So sad that my team didn't do well for this year.Never mind.I hope by next year, I can help my team to win again the game.
I took part for relay in this sports day for 4 x 100m (teachers)......and my team got second place.It's okay.At least we already try and we took part in this event.
It's been a long time I didn't write much for my blog.It's because the computer lab in school didn't open because all the teachers busy for the sports.I hope by next week, they will open the lab so that I will have a chance to update my blog.Tomorrow is holiday so I guess I need to take a good rest.But I guess I want to go to dentist...to check my teeth.I'm not feeling very well because of my teeth.Hope I have a chance to go to dentist by tomorrow.
I really can't wait to go to school this coming Monday because I do really want to feel on track.We have been busy for a couple of weeks and things didn't get very well.I wish everything will be just fine.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT I DO!
So sad that my team didn't do well for this year.Never mind.I hope by next year, I can help my team to win again the game.
I took part for relay in this sports day for 4 x 100m (teachers)......and my team got second place.It's okay.At least we already try and we took part in this event.
It's been a long time I didn't write much for my blog.It's because the computer lab in school didn't open because all the teachers busy for the sports.I hope by next week, they will open the lab so that I will have a chance to update my blog.Tomorrow is holiday so I guess I need to take a good rest.But I guess I want to go to dentist...to check my teeth.I'm not feeling very well because of my teeth.Hope I have a chance to go to dentist by tomorrow.
I really can't wait to go to school this coming Monday because I do really want to feel on track.We have been busy for a couple of weeks and things didn't get very well.I wish everything will be just fine.
GOD PLEASE HELP ME WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT I DO!
Saturday, January 21, 2006
SCHOOL WILL BE BUSY
My school will be busy soon......for sports day.Then, we will have the tuition class.What a day...but it's okay coz that's what are teacher for.To be very busy and busy.But it really fun and enjoy.Sports Day is just around the corner and I will involve with publicity........and emergency case during the Sports Day.My team never lost with this tournament and we wish this year my team will get first place......hope so...I will try hard to help my team achieve this glory.We will start train this coming Tuesday.....and I will choose my student from Year 3 and Year 4 for Second Group.I wish my team will again become the best team ever!
GOOD LUCK FOR BAHAMAN(BIRU-BLUE).........
p/s Today I turn 26 years and 10 months........
GOOD LUCK FOR BAHAMAN(BIRU-BLUE).........
p/s Today I turn 26 years and 10 months........
Sunday, January 08, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006
It's a new year for 2006......and I was thinking that time pass by so fast.I've been teaching for more than 4 years now and lots of challenge I face as a teacher.But I'm happy with that coz it makes me to believe in myself and face each and everything with open heart.
I was so happy with my friends....like Beth and Elsa.They all can further their study.Congratulations!.......I hope I can also further my study like them.I must move forward.
I was worried with MOM.....coz she always not feeling very well.Indeed she felt tired and need a good rest.But it is so hard for her.....coz if she have to rest, then who is going to do all the housework?So hard coz I'm far from them and I couldn't help MOM.....only during the weekend.That is why DAD have to do some of housework.
Actually MOM have to take care of my cousin who got sick since last two years and he can't move.He got no one and MOM was there to help him......taking good care of him.I'm so proud of you,....MOM.You were there when people really need you and I'm so proud to have you........
I hope this 2006 bring lots of joy and happiness for me and my beloved...SHIKRA.So many things happen between us two.Sometimes we both felt happy and sometimes we felt so much hurt.But it makes us felt so deeply in love with each other.That's what love is.......TO BE LOVE AND TO BE HURT......otherwise you never know the meaning of TRUE LOVE.........
I hope he is the one for me.........and no matter what problem and situation that we both face throughout this year, we hope GOD'S LOVE and GRACE will guide us all and to face it with open heart and strong enough to deal with each problem........may my family and friends will be happy always........AMEN!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH....MY DEAR BELOVED...SHIKRA!
I was so happy with my friends....like Beth and Elsa.They all can further their study.Congratulations!.......I hope I can also further my study like them.I must move forward.
I was worried with MOM.....coz she always not feeling very well.Indeed she felt tired and need a good rest.But it is so hard for her.....coz if she have to rest, then who is going to do all the housework?So hard coz I'm far from them and I couldn't help MOM.....only during the weekend.That is why DAD have to do some of housework.
Actually MOM have to take care of my cousin who got sick since last two years and he can't move.He got no one and MOM was there to help him......taking good care of him.I'm so proud of you,....MOM.You were there when people really need you and I'm so proud to have you........
I hope this 2006 bring lots of joy and happiness for me and my beloved...SHIKRA.So many things happen between us two.Sometimes we both felt happy and sometimes we felt so much hurt.But it makes us felt so deeply in love with each other.That's what love is.......TO BE LOVE AND TO BE HURT......otherwise you never know the meaning of TRUE LOVE.........
I hope he is the one for me.........and no matter what problem and situation that we both face throughout this year, we hope GOD'S LOVE and GRACE will guide us all and to face it with open heart and strong enough to deal with each problem........may my family and friends will be happy always........AMEN!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH....MY DEAR BELOVED...SHIKRA!
Saturday, December 31, 2005
I DO LOVE YOU!
I do love you so much, my dear beloved SHIKRA.I'm afraid that you will change what you felt towards me.But it's okay.I know that you are strong enough and you always be fine in each and everything.I'm so glad and proud to have you in my life.I hope you are the man that I can spend the rest of my life with.
I know it's not that easy for me to be with SHIKRA.But I was so happy with what I have with him now.He is the best I ever had...............and I'm not going to loose him again...........never!
He really honest with me.So hard to find a man like him........never kiss a woman and even never falling in love before.I guess I am the luckiest girl of all to have him.I so proud of that.Guess I'm the first lady to kiss him................wow, so nice to think like that.But it's not that easy.Time will make sure if I can have him as my HUBBY!
I do really miss you and I am sure you do miss me too the way I miss you!
LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!
I know it's not that easy for me to be with SHIKRA.But I was so happy with what I have with him now.He is the best I ever had...............and I'm not going to loose him again...........never!
He really honest with me.So hard to find a man like him........never kiss a woman and even never falling in love before.I guess I am the luckiest girl of all to have him.I so proud of that.Guess I'm the first lady to kiss him................wow, so nice to think like that.But it's not that easy.Time will make sure if I can have him as my HUBBY!
I do really miss you and I am sure you do miss me too the way I miss you!
LOVE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!
Thursday, December 22, 2005
I AM WITH YOU
I sent my beloved SMS last nite......tellin him that I'm kinda hard to know him because he didn't talk to much and didn't say anything after what I did to him.I felt so terrible.I do miss him so much.I'm not sure what my life will be without him.He is the best I ever had.If I lost him, I guess my life will change.I will never ever find someone like him.It's because he is all I got.He got what I want in man.And, thank you God for giving me someone as special as SHIKRA.
I guess SHIKRA was not happy with my sms last nite........and TODAY, he sent me offline messages......he thought I will understand his situation with his official work there.But, sometimes I think him in a wrong way.I also wrote that he have changed what he felt on me.But instead, I was wrong.He was strong with his feeling one me and I should believe in his love......and he never ever change.He also said that 'I AM WITH YOU'.I was so happy to know that.I should trust him more and more.He only got me in his life and no other women can take my place.I'm always in his way.I must try to understand his situation now.He needs me.I should be what I should be.Thank you so much my dear beloved SHIKRA.You know that you can make me happy always!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH........
I guess SHIKRA was not happy with my sms last nite........and TODAY, he sent me offline messages......he thought I will understand his situation with his official work there.But, sometimes I think him in a wrong way.I also wrote that he have changed what he felt on me.But instead, I was wrong.He was strong with his feeling one me and I should believe in his love......and he never ever change.He also said that 'I AM WITH YOU'.I was so happy to know that.I should trust him more and more.He only got me in his life and no other women can take my place.I'm always in his way.I must try to understand his situation now.He needs me.I should be what I should be.Thank you so much my dear beloved SHIKRA.You know that you can make me happy always!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH........
Saturday, December 17, 2005
KEEP YOU HAPPY ALWAYS!
I'm not sure if my beloved is fine or not.He said he was fine.But I can felt that he is not fine.He got different feeling on me and I'm definitely sure about it.But he pretend that everything is fine.I'm not sure what he really felt.I guess he was trying to hide what he really felt.He don't want to let it show.I felt so sad and I'm not happy with that.I hope you can be honest with me........show me what you really want.Don't let me think about it alone and I can't stop thinking about you.I know I have hurt you so much.I do really knew it.But I didn't mean it.But it mean so much to you for what I did.I wish there is a chance for explaination but I guess it's not going to happen.
I really felt you have changed what you felt on me.The love you got already changed.......and it really hurt.The way you talk to me when we go online, is the answer.I felt different when I talked with you because you have changed.Now, today I tried to talked with you but there is no respond from you and I'm not so sure what's wrong with that.I hope it's the problem with the internet connection.I'm waiting for you to reply my message but still, you couldn't reply it.I guess you angry with me, that's why you didn't reply my message.
I know how angry you are with me.I do really know.When we talked last time after you found out about my other ID, you felt so regret about that.And I felt so hurt and sad because you said that you wish you just die and became one of the victim on the disaster.What would you think if I also said that to you when you done a mistake on me?You are not happy,rite?I know I have my mistake on you.But the mistake which I done to you....I hope you can consider it very well.Why I did that?Because you didn't give me proper response, like what I did to you.I don't want to talk about that.I got nothing if I said that.Things will getting worst.
I'm now have to move on even it is so hard.I'm not sure if I still have your love with me.I couldn't think to have your love in my life.I won't dare to have your love.....coz I already hurt you.I thought my mistakes is fine but I guess is the biggest mistakes for you.
I'm not sure what I want to feel with you.You said you want to KEEP ME HAPPY ALWAYS.....but I guess what you did really makes me felt so hurt.Plese try to be honest when you love someone.Don't pretend you are fine......instead you felt so hurt.I need your honesty to tell me the truth.I never thought you don't want to talk with me.I guess I have to let things just like that.No matter what happen, I'm so happy because I'm honest to tell you what I really felt and nothing left to know.....and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!......even now you have changed what you felt against me.I wish all the best in everything you do!
I really felt you have changed what you felt on me.The love you got already changed.......and it really hurt.The way you talk to me when we go online, is the answer.I felt different when I talked with you because you have changed.Now, today I tried to talked with you but there is no respond from you and I'm not so sure what's wrong with that.I hope it's the problem with the internet connection.I'm waiting for you to reply my message but still, you couldn't reply it.I guess you angry with me, that's why you didn't reply my message.
I know how angry you are with me.I do really know.When we talked last time after you found out about my other ID, you felt so regret about that.And I felt so hurt and sad because you said that you wish you just die and became one of the victim on the disaster.What would you think if I also said that to you when you done a mistake on me?You are not happy,rite?I know I have my mistake on you.But the mistake which I done to you....I hope you can consider it very well.Why I did that?Because you didn't give me proper response, like what I did to you.I don't want to talk about that.I got nothing if I said that.Things will getting worst.
I'm now have to move on even it is so hard.I'm not sure if I still have your love with me.I couldn't think to have your love in my life.I won't dare to have your love.....coz I already hurt you.I thought my mistakes is fine but I guess is the biggest mistakes for you.
I'm not sure what I want to feel with you.You said you want to KEEP ME HAPPY ALWAYS.....but I guess what you did really makes me felt so hurt.Plese try to be honest when you love someone.Don't pretend you are fine......instead you felt so hurt.I need your honesty to tell me the truth.I never thought you don't want to talk with me.I guess I have to let things just like that.No matter what happen, I'm so happy because I'm honest to tell you what I really felt and nothing left to know.....and I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!......even now you have changed what you felt against me.I wish all the best in everything you do!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
MY BELOVED IS FINE...THANK YOU!
I felt so terrible after what I did to my beloved.I know it's not that easy for him to know and accept what I just did to him.I hope he is fine also.....but I guess I might not know what inside his heart.But he is a true decent man.
I can't stop thinking of him.Every time I woke up, my first thought is him.His name always lingers on my mind and I keep on saying it.I'm not sure what my life will be without him.He seem to be very perfect and I guess I have no words to describe him........he was my everything!
I was so happy I have a chance to talk with him today.My beloved is fine and I was so happy today that he is definitely fine.Maybe I wasn't really sure what is in his mind.I felt so happy anyway.Thanx my dear for making my day today!
He do really always want to make me happy even it is so hard and I was grateful to have him in my life.He really want to make sure that I am happy and indeed he keep me happy.He said to me today when we both talk online is that.... "KEEP YOU HAPPY ALWAYS".Thanks my dear!
I must now believe and trust my beloved so much.Just as what he did to me.I must learn from him.He was so strong with his feeling on me.I hope I will be strong like him and will keep our relation last forever.
THANX MY SHIKRA........indeed you are like an EAGLE!
I can't stop thinking of him.Every time I woke up, my first thought is him.His name always lingers on my mind and I keep on saying it.I'm not sure what my life will be without him.He seem to be very perfect and I guess I have no words to describe him........he was my everything!
I was so happy I have a chance to talk with him today.My beloved is fine and I was so happy today that he is definitely fine.Maybe I wasn't really sure what is in his mind.I felt so happy anyway.Thanx my dear for making my day today!
He do really always want to make me happy even it is so hard and I was grateful to have him in my life.He really want to make sure that I am happy and indeed he keep me happy.He said to me today when we both talk online is that.... "KEEP YOU HAPPY ALWAYS".Thanks my dear!
I must now believe and trust my beloved so much.Just as what he did to me.I must learn from him.He was so strong with his feeling on me.I hope I will be strong like him and will keep our relation last forever.
THANX MY SHIKRA........indeed you are like an EAGLE!
Friday, December 09, 2005
MY BELOVED FOUND OUT!
I couldn't really believe that my beloved already found out my other ID on chat.....MSN and Yahoo.I don't know how he found out but he was sure 100% it was me and he just want to make sure.
I couldn't admit it's not me because he wants me to swear that the ID is not my other ID under his LOVE.I can't lie to him......then I admit to him about the ID.Shikra found out about me using another ID coz:
1- Everytime I send sms.ac using my usual ID, in a same time I also send sms.ac using the other ID.
2- He never gave ALLY his yahoo ID.So, Shikra was so sure that I'm the one who gave ALLY his yahoo ID.
3- The font colour that ALLY used on MSN is the same font colour that I used when I talk with Shikra.
He knew I always used purple as my font colour.
4- And for the last reason, Shikra was so sure it was me using that other ID by the way ALLY talked with Shikra and the way ALLY used the sentences when talking.He was sure it was me.I thought Shikra didn't know me but instead he knew me more than that.Just that he never told me..Now I knew how deep his feeling for me.
Oh, God, it was so difficult for him to accept and know what I just did to him.He was so honest with his love on me.....but I'm the one who turn things very bad.
I hope my beloved Shikra can understand why I did that.I didn't mean to test his love on me or try to play a game with his heart.It just happen like that.
First, Shikra introduced me about sms.ac.I registered my name on that sms.ac........but when I try to open my ID, it can't be open.So, I try with another ID using my twin sister's number and that is why ALLY exist.I will open both of my sms.ac.But on that day, I was wrong send sms using ALLY's ID.That is the first time Shikra got that sms.ac.I was surprised and I don't know what to say.So, I just leave things like that.But then, ALLY got responsed from Shikra.So, things started out so well.I want to tell Shikra about ALLY, but I'm afraid he will damn angry with me.So, I plan to tell him about ALLY when the time is come.But so sad, Shikra already found out about ALLY more than I expect.I don't know what to say but I wish Shikra can understand why I did that.I hope he didn't misunderstood me.But what can I do?he knew about it already.I did that because I just want to know how and why Shikra love me through ALLY. I didn't mean anything.If Shikra can recall all the conversation that ALLY have with him, then he can understand that most of the questions that ALLY asked are mostly on wanting to know his feeling towards HELENA.That's all and nothing more.But I didn't have a chance to explain that.It's okay.I have to accept the consequence on what I did to Shikra.
Now, I was damn hurt because I didn't have a chance to explain everything and I already hurt his feeling so much.He was so hurt.Words can't really explain how hurt he is, but I knew.
The situation between me and Shikra is quiet different now.I can feel it.He was not sure again what he felt about me after what I did to him.There is nothing I can do.I just hope he will said again all the magic words to me.That is the only way I can know if he still have his feeling on me.It's weird because there is no love words between us when we talk to each other and it hurt so much.
He didnt allowed me to discuss the topic when we both online and talking.But I can't be like that.He knew that I will discuss the topic with him.But he didn't allow me to do that.I can't pretend nothing happen and just forget things like that to him.Let him hurt his feeling alone........and I don't have a chance to know how he felt after what I did to him.I just hope he will open his heart to talk with me and give me chance to explain everything because I can't go on talking without knowing everything.
If I have a chance, then I will talk with him.But for now, I think that I have to give him some time and I will talk with him when he ask me to come online and talk................and if he felt like he reeally miss me so much.Now, Len, give a break and time to your beloved Shikra.If he still love you, then he will turn to you.Otherwise, you have to move on no matter how hurt and hard it is.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOREVER AND MORE!
P/S Just remember that Shikra still have his love on you, just that maybe it will be different.But don't ever change what you felt towards him.And just wait until the time he don't want you in his life anymore.
I couldn't admit it's not me because he wants me to swear that the ID is not my other ID under his LOVE.I can't lie to him......then I admit to him about the ID.Shikra found out about me using another ID coz:
1- Everytime I send sms.ac using my usual ID, in a same time I also send sms.ac using the other ID.
2- He never gave ALLY his yahoo ID.So, Shikra was so sure that I'm the one who gave ALLY his yahoo ID.
3- The font colour that ALLY used on MSN is the same font colour that I used when I talk with Shikra.
He knew I always used purple as my font colour.
4- And for the last reason, Shikra was so sure it was me using that other ID by the way ALLY talked with Shikra and the way ALLY used the sentences when talking.He was sure it was me.I thought Shikra didn't know me but instead he knew me more than that.Just that he never told me..Now I knew how deep his feeling for me.
Oh, God, it was so difficult for him to accept and know what I just did to him.He was so honest with his love on me.....but I'm the one who turn things very bad.
I hope my beloved Shikra can understand why I did that.I didn't mean to test his love on me or try to play a game with his heart.It just happen like that.
First, Shikra introduced me about sms.ac.I registered my name on that sms.ac........but when I try to open my ID, it can't be open.So, I try with another ID using my twin sister's number and that is why ALLY exist.I will open both of my sms.ac.But on that day, I was wrong send sms using ALLY's ID.That is the first time Shikra got that sms.ac.I was surprised and I don't know what to say.So, I just leave things like that.But then, ALLY got responsed from Shikra.So, things started out so well.I want to tell Shikra about ALLY, but I'm afraid he will damn angry with me.So, I plan to tell him about ALLY when the time is come.But so sad, Shikra already found out about ALLY more than I expect.I don't know what to say but I wish Shikra can understand why I did that.I hope he didn't misunderstood me.But what can I do?he knew about it already.I did that because I just want to know how and why Shikra love me through ALLY. I didn't mean anything.If Shikra can recall all the conversation that ALLY have with him, then he can understand that most of the questions that ALLY asked are mostly on wanting to know his feeling towards HELENA.That's all and nothing more.But I didn't have a chance to explain that.It's okay.I have to accept the consequence on what I did to Shikra.
Now, I was damn hurt because I didn't have a chance to explain everything and I already hurt his feeling so much.He was so hurt.Words can't really explain how hurt he is, but I knew.
The situation between me and Shikra is quiet different now.I can feel it.He was not sure again what he felt about me after what I did to him.There is nothing I can do.I just hope he will said again all the magic words to me.That is the only way I can know if he still have his feeling on me.It's weird because there is no love words between us when we talk to each other and it hurt so much.
He didnt allowed me to discuss the topic when we both online and talking.But I can't be like that.He knew that I will discuss the topic with him.But he didn't allow me to do that.I can't pretend nothing happen and just forget things like that to him.Let him hurt his feeling alone........and I don't have a chance to know how he felt after what I did to him.I just hope he will open his heart to talk with me and give me chance to explain everything because I can't go on talking without knowing everything.
If I have a chance, then I will talk with him.But for now, I think that I have to give him some time and I will talk with him when he ask me to come online and talk................and if he felt like he reeally miss me so much.Now, Len, give a break and time to your beloved Shikra.If he still love you, then he will turn to you.Otherwise, you have to move on no matter how hurt and hard it is.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOREVER AND MORE!
P/S Just remember that Shikra still have his love on you, just that maybe it will be different.But don't ever change what you felt towards him.And just wait until the time he don't want you in his life anymore.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
WHEN LOVE AND HATE COLLIDE!
This morning I got sms from my old friend.He needs my help.So I set a date with him.So happy to see him after so long.It's been four years I didn't talk with him closely like today. I felt so happy with him.I know it might be akward for both of us because it's been so long..........then suddenly we met each other.I'm so happy with this date.Hope to date with him more............
He was nicce and hope everything will also be fine with him.I want to talk with him more, but he have to go.It's okay, I will see him again next time.
Oh my God!Another problem I have to face again with my boyfriend.We both really misunderstood each other.I didn't received his offline message telling me about his situation and the problem he have to face there.How should I know his problem when I didn't received any message from him.I know you might be angry and mad at me...............because I didn't understand ur situation and human problems.I hope we both can really talk with each other.......so we can understand this situation better.Otherwise, we both will hurt so much.
I'M SO SORRY IF I HAVE HURT YOU!........
He was nicce and hope everything will also be fine with him.I want to talk with him more, but he have to go.It's okay, I will see him again next time.
Oh my God!Another problem I have to face again with my boyfriend.We both really misunderstood each other.I didn't received his offline message telling me about his situation and the problem he have to face there.How should I know his problem when I didn't received any message from him.I know you might be angry and mad at me...............because I didn't understand ur situation and human problems.I hope we both can really talk with each other.......so we can understand this situation better.Otherwise, we both will hurt so much.
I'M SO SORRY IF I HAVE HURT YOU!........
Friday, December 02, 2005
HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BELOVED...SHIKRA!
It's my beloved birthday today...HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY my dear.I'm so happy for you for this day and so sad that I can't celebrate the birthday with you because we both being away so far to each other.But we do understand our feelings.Just that I am the one who always curious about your love.I hope this day for your age, will bring you all the joy and happiness in your life and hope you will always have a great day ahead of you.
Live a happy life as you always want and believe in yourself.I always trust and believe in you.I'm so sorry if for the past year I've known you............I have hurt you so much.Please forgive me.......if I have a chance then I will show you what my love is!
You are the best thing ever happened in my life and I wanna thank you for the love you have given me...........
I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH ALL MY LOVE........
Live a happy life as you always want and believe in yourself.I always trust and believe in you.I'm so sorry if for the past year I've known you............I have hurt you so much.Please forgive me.......if I have a chance then I will show you what my love is!
You are the best thing ever happened in my life and I wanna thank you for the love you have given me...........
I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH ALL MY LOVE........
Sunday, November 27, 2005
I MISS YOU!
I really miss my beloved.I hope he is always fine by now.Thank you so much for giving me a bell to let me know that u r doin okay.I was so confused because it's like we both lost contact to each other.I don't know if things is fine with u there.No one will tell me about you there.I hope someday and soon we will talk again.I will be waiting for you.
I do hope this coming 2nd December 2005, you can come online and we both can talk.You know what this day means....but if you can't come online, then it's okay.I do understand your situation there.But I really count on you on that day.I will be lucky if you can come on that day.I do really miss you so much.You do know how I felt about you.........
GOD BLESS YOU ALL THE WAY...MY DEAR BELOVED SHIKRA........
I do hope this coming 2nd December 2005, you can come online and we both can talk.You know what this day means....but if you can't come online, then it's okay.I do understand your situation there.But I really count on you on that day.I will be lucky if you can come on that day.I do really miss you so much.You do know how I felt about you.........
GOD BLESS YOU ALL THE WAY...MY DEAR BELOVED SHIKRA........
Thursday, November 17, 2005
I MISS MY FRIEND SO MUCH!
Nothing much to do at home.Just helping my mother doing the housework and then watch the TV.Sometimes I felt so bored but what can I do?.....maybe just reading and learn a lot more.This coming December......I have examination to deal with.It is PTK (Penilaian Tahap Kecekapan) for us because we are the government officer.This examination is quiet good because it test all the officer about the job they were doin and if they do really understand about the work and the law.
Got to study hard from now. The exam will be on 28th December 2005.
I do miss my friend so much.Don't know what is their plan this holiday.I hope they all are very happy in each and whatever they do.And I knew they do really enjoy their time this holiday.......with their beloved family and their beloved one.
I wish I have a time to meet them all and heard their story.I do really miss my time back in Kent College where lots of memories that I can't forget and it will always remain as the memory that will last forever.
I wish all my friend in 981 Kent College are always be happy and I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!
Thanks for all the sweet memories we all share together.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL........
Got to study hard from now. The exam will be on 28th December 2005.
I do miss my friend so much.Don't know what is their plan this holiday.I hope they all are very happy in each and whatever they do.And I knew they do really enjoy their time this holiday.......with their beloved family and their beloved one.
I wish I have a time to meet them all and heard their story.I do really miss my time back in Kent College where lots of memories that I can't forget and it will always remain as the memory that will last forever.
I wish all my friend in 981 Kent College are always be happy and I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!
Thanks for all the sweet memories we all share together.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL........
Thursday, November 10, 2005
LOVING SOMEONE
When it comes to love.....sometimes we don't know what to say and sometimes it's hard to explain it.Person who already fell in love.....they can explain the love and even if they don't they can understand it.....
I thought loving someone is just as simple as that.....but when I really face it and fell int love......I was speechless.It's a great and good feeling.You felt like you were in heaven's gate.........and will reach to the happy ending.I never know what is the end of my relationship with Shikra.....but I hope there is an end.
I didn't talk much with Shikra recently and I though so hard for me to talk with him again.Looks like I will lost contact with him.He didn't even try to contact me.....but what can I do?He is like that.I'm not sure if he even care for what I felt.Whatever happen to him.....I just hope he is fine.Sometimes, I felt like I was so angry with him coz he seem didn't care for what I did to him and he didn't respond so good.I understand that.I just knew he told me that he loves me.He only said those words but he doesn't know how much I miss him.So hard to explain it.I wish he knew how I really felt and what I need from him as my lover.A good respond and care for me.That's all I need.Better to stop this relationship......but I can't.I just wait for his answer until he said he wants to end this relationship.I wish he knew how to love someone.Even if I can't live my life with him........I was so happy that I learn how to love someone from him.THANK YOU SO MUCH, SHIKRA.
I hope you will find the right one who can make you happy and will understand you more than I do.Open you heart to someone who deserve your love.You will fine her.......just a matter of time.Be patient and you will find her.
Even if we can't be together.......I promise to love you FOREVER!
GOD BLESS YOU MY DEAR BELOVED.......SHIKRA!
I thought loving someone is just as simple as that.....but when I really face it and fell int love......I was speechless.It's a great and good feeling.You felt like you were in heaven's gate.........and will reach to the happy ending.I never know what is the end of my relationship with Shikra.....but I hope there is an end.
I didn't talk much with Shikra recently and I though so hard for me to talk with him again.Looks like I will lost contact with him.He didn't even try to contact me.....but what can I do?He is like that.I'm not sure if he even care for what I felt.Whatever happen to him.....I just hope he is fine.Sometimes, I felt like I was so angry with him coz he seem didn't care for what I did to him and he didn't respond so good.I understand that.I just knew he told me that he loves me.He only said those words but he doesn't know how much I miss him.So hard to explain it.I wish he knew how I really felt and what I need from him as my lover.A good respond and care for me.That's all I need.Better to stop this relationship......but I can't.I just wait for his answer until he said he wants to end this relationship.I wish he knew how to love someone.Even if I can't live my life with him........I was so happy that I learn how to love someone from him.THANK YOU SO MUCH, SHIKRA.
I hope you will find the right one who can make you happy and will understand you more than I do.Open you heart to someone who deserve your love.You will fine her.......just a matter of time.Be patient and you will find her.
Even if we can't be together.......I promise to love you FOREVER!
GOD BLESS YOU MY DEAR BELOVED.......SHIKRA!
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