BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

BLESSING DAY OF MY BEST FRIEND...

2012-01-27T17:38:00.000+08:00

I felt so happy yesterday (26th Jan). I can make it to my best friend's Blessing Day. It is Beth's Blessing Day yesterday. It was one of my best moment to see her walk down the isle and see her had her blessing. She looks so pretty and beautiful. I knew already that she will look so pretty on her big day.

She called me last time on 7 Jan after I finished my class and let me know about her Blessing Day that will be on 26th Jan. I felt so happy that she called and let me know about it. It is an honour for me. I saw Beth's children. Meeting her dad and all her sisters. Peach is her theme colour for her Blessing Day. But I didn't come with a peach dress. Sori my friend...I'm so happy after many years I finally met her children. They are very cute....Mia, oh she was so cute, chubby and very hyperactive...her son, OJ...oh, very handsome...and her third daughter, oh I forgot her name. All of them are very cute. I had a chance took some picture of Beth and her dear family....and sure I did took some picture with her. I can't describe how happy I am yesterday. She look so pretty in her wedding dress. I like her wedding dress. Indeed she is pretty in any dress. After the blessing, we had some refreshment at the parish hall. All the food are very delicious. I like all the menu prepared. I eat much...hehehehe....Before went back, I gave present to Beth as her wedding gift. I plan to give her more...coming soon...;-)..

2012...YEAR OF THE DRAGON...

2012-01-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

I had one week holidays for this Chinese New Year. So, I spend this time with my dear family. All my sibling also have one week holidays....wahhh...so great that we all can be together and enjoy our holiday so much. Tomorrow me and my siblings will have things to do in KK town. I also have a few things I need to settle before go back to LD.

I went back to KK early on Thursday (19 Jan). I took one day sick-leave. Actually I didn't felt very comfortable to stay another day in the school coz of someone. This person lied to me on something. I just couldn't believe why this person had to lie. I am honest with my friendship but this person....oh God why on earth this person is like that....a cheater. I was very angry because I ask this person myself but this person did not tell me the truth till I found out the truth. Never mind....I just have to go on with my life. This person is not going to stop me from living my happy life as I always be.

I pray to God that I have the courage to face my life with a cheater among my life work. I will be strong and I will just ignore this person.

MY FUTURE BOYFRIEND

2012-01-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha....I'm not talking about my future boyfriend. It is a movie that I watched yesterday on TV3...My future boyfriend. It is a nice story where the woman met this guy and he is from the future. He travel back to 21 century in 2011 from 2032 just to meet this woman He wanted this woman to explain to him what is love. It is because during their time in 2032, people couldn't really explain what love is.

The woman is a journalist. So, she wrote a story about this guy from the future. At first she did not believe this guy is from the future. But after the guy disappeared in front of her and leave her with his love, then only she realized that she is in love with that future guy.

The woman brought the guy everywhere to show him what is love about. She told the guy that love is a feeling that when you felt close and you felt different with the person. You felt connected. What is funny when I watch this movie is when he saw people kissing. She asked the woman, why they "press their lips"?It means they are "kissing". The woman told him, you "press lips" when you like that person. When the cried, the guy asked her...."why are you leaking?".Hahahaha.....The guy got caught coz police thought he counterfeit money. Actually he brought money from the future. His professor travel from the future to safe him. They escaped from the prison and the professor try to drive a car. It's auto car. The professor push to D and the car hit the wall....he called it "Destruction". The guy said, try R coz it's "Restore". But before that, the guy said, hit the pedal "on the floor". The professor was confused and said "I never thought there is a pedal on the floor"....hahahaha..

Almost 2 weeks I didn't watch the TV because my astro got problem. But last Friday, I leave the decoder on standby mode and yesterday morning I can watch the TV. I watched the marathon for Nada Cinta. I thought the drama already finish. While watching the drama, I did my secretary work and thank GOD I finished the work.

LISTEN AND TALK WITH MUM MAKES ME HAPPY

2012-01-14T06:58:00.000+08:00

I slept at 4pm after finished meeting at school. I felt very tired. Then, at 6pm, suddenly I received a call from my twin sis. She hand over her hp to MUM. Then I heard MUM's voice on the line....oh, I felt so fresh. During that time, felt sleepy but her voice makes me really happy. I didn't really stress with my work as a teacher. Just that, I am tired with lots of work. Besides teaching, I have to do other stuff. But it didn't bother me at all. More than 10 years experiences, sure I can get rid of it....hahahahaha...

MUM as always told me to always pray everyday....before I go to sleep and before I go to work. So, I set on my mind to always pray. No matter what, I will always remember what MUM wanted me to do.Actually I pray a lot. Not only before sleep and before go to work. Every time I'm free, sure I will pray. I am happy now with myself....coz I have a good weapon to protect me....it's my pray.

Today in school, we had a meeting with our pupils for school's Sports Day. Now, my new team is Hijau....with a new name....NIKE....so funny they chose this branded for the team's name. But its okay coz I like NIKE...hehehehe...Guess from now on starting this Monday have to wear NIKE wardrobe...huhu. I have to train my pupils for the championship. I saw many athletes in our team. I will work hard to achieve our team's goal....to win all the athletic. Not forget the teachers will run for the 4x100m relay on the day of the championship. Hope my team can win...

I MISS OUR OLD HOUSE...

2012-01-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

I miss my old house back in Kg. Unta. There were so many memories there. I grew up there since our family moved from Kg. Singgamata. Even when I write now, my mind was already in the house. I felt the memories and all the things I did with my family. I love the environment in our house....

Now, I enter the house and see many sofas. Sometimes, only my brother alone watching TV. Others at the back and my brothers went out to see their friends. The house is so long. Sometimes you felt tired to walk to the back. DAD did everything for our house. He painted with our brother, Herman. DAD designed and created our house very well. I love everything he did.We have this space near the living room which our family used to hang and talk. We make this space after our DAD died. There is a television in this area if we want to play PS. Then me and my twin sis room. There were many magazines and book. Now all the magazines and book were kept inside my brother room at the back. I went to the dining area and near it is my parents room. I remembered every time before I went to sleep, I must kiss both my DAD and MUM. I can't sleep if I didn't kiss both of them. We had this long dining table where 10 people can sit together and eat. Oh I miss this moment so much. I saw my DAD and MUM having their dinner. Our kitchen...DAD always cooked for us. He will prepare dinner for us. He is such a good cook with his love. When I think back again now, he did everything well before he died. He gave all his love to us. He make sure everything is perfect. He will do all the housework and prepared food early in the morning for my sister and brother to bring it to work. Sometimes during weekend, DAD the one prepared breakfast and wake me up and we having breakfast together...I MISS YOU SO MUCH DAD....

I MISS YOU DAD....I cried and hurt so much to know that I lost my DAD. Even now, I still couldn't believe that I lost my DAD. He always said, he will live long because he was in good health, active and he did most of the housework. I believe that and I do know he is a good and kind man. People admitted it. But who knows, some people jealous of my DAD. They did everything to see him die. And they won. But they didn't know and realize that we knew. It make us strong even you are not around. Your presence still lingers here.....

We left the house in 2008, two years after DAD gone. The house were very clean when we left it. Now, there is intruder in our house. They entered the house without any permission. They thought they can just enter someone's house without asking any permission. How could such a person like that think like a child? Did they ever think if someone go inside their house, doing whatever they want without telling you anything...would you accept that? They thought we don't want to come back to that house. It's our house. My MUM and DAD bought it and renovated it. It became such a nice and good house. Now our cousin stayed in the house. We just hope he will take good care of the house.

DEAR DAD....THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU DID FOR US....

END OF 2011...THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING........

2012-01-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

Today is the end of 2011. Many things happened along 2011. But most of all there are lots of nice and good memories to remember. There are:

1. My brother Carlos got married to his beloved Diana on March 10, 2011.

The ceremony is on March 12, 2011.

2. My twin sister Cristina quit her job in Lahad Datu and moved to Kota Kinabalu to be with my family...left me alone in Lahad Datu.

3. I got a chance to further my study to get my degree on TESL.

4. I got promoted to DGA 32 on July.

5. I found someone who care for me.....

6. Part of my wishes and dreams do come true...

THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING EVERYTHING PERFECT FOR ME

AND MY BELOVED FAMILY.

Christmas mood...

2011-12-13T11:17:00.000+08:00

I went to post office early this morning to post "batang buruk" to my brother. Her wife really wanted to taste the kuih made by my mum. I paid the postage for RM87.45. If I use domestic postage, maybe it will not cost me much. Maybe in couple 2 days my brother will receive the package.

On Sunday next week, it will be Christmas day. I can't wait for this day. So this whole holiday, I am busy at home helping my mum doing the housework and do some preparation for Christmas. We done already with our Christmas tree and decorations for our living room. My twin sister done much work to make everything seem so good and look nice with her ideas.

Now, I just have to prepare for the cookies. Still haven't decide which cookies for this Christmas. But I knew already what to bake. Tonight, I will go to town with twin sister and brother because twin sister plan to buy a gift coz this Sunday they are going to exchange gift.

END OF MY FIRST SEMESTER

2011-11-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

Yesss!!!...Finally I just ended my first semester examination yesterday....felt so relief. Next year will be my second semester with new assignments to do.I'm not sure what will be the result of the exam. Last Saturday I took linguistics and yesterday literature. The questions quite tough...but it is ok coz I need to answer it even its difficult.

This school holiday, I want to be very happy with my dear beloved family and for sure try to diet...hehehehe. Its my goal to down my weight...even it is only for 1kg. Better than none. I will try hard for that....huhu...

GOOD NEWS...

2011-09-16T09:58:00.000+08:00

My young brother Carlos SMS me last nite. He told me a good news. I felt so happy when I heard the news. I just can't wait for that moment. Hope my brother and his wife will be just fine and feeling great.

Yesterday was the last day for UPSR exam. I do hope my students can do very well for English paper. The questions for Paper 1 and Paper 2 are quite easy I guess. This Monday, I will discuss the answers with my students and see how many marks they get for Paper 1.

It's Malaysia Day today on Friday and I don't know what will be my plan for today. Maybe just stay in my room and surf the net. I have to check on my assignments also. I wonder what are my family in KK doin' at this moment?So nice all of them at home together. I wish I'm with them now, but never mind coz next week I will going back for my fourth tutorial. So, I can spend my time with them....hehehehe...

UPSR EXAM

2011-09-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

It is UPSR Exam today until this Thursday and English will be on Thursday. I went to SK Sri Pantai with my friend Lisa as one of the monitor for the exam in that school. This is the first time I became one of the monitor. We left our apartment around 6.15 a.m. and it took us for 1 hour journey to reach that school. Have to sleep early tonite so that can wake up as early as a bird.

Tomorrow we will leave early around 5.45 because we want to stop by at SMK Tungku to pick up the exam questions paper at 'bilik kebal'...that's what people called the place where the questions will be kept. The exam will end early around 9.50 a.m. After that, I plan to go to the bank to pay for the cream that I order for my sister and brothers. Then also, I help my housemate Anne to buy some groceries for her.

Last night, I called home and talked with MUM. MUM asked me to called the passport agent today and ask them if MUM's passport done or not done yet. I called Judy, the boss and she said the passport was settled already and by tomorrow my twin sister's friend, Razimah will pick up the passport. I mentioned to Judy also the name of the person that will come and take the passport. I told MUM everything today that her passport was done already and MUM felt very happy with that. Hope by tomorrow twin sis will asked Razimah to pick the passport.

Before that, we visited our friend Zulkarnain or we always called him Pet and his wife, Yaya at the hospital. They met with an accident last week on Saturday. My friends Kak Nabila, Mardiah and Salbaherna picked me up at SK Sri Pantai's school and four of us heading our way to town. I felt so sad when I saw what happened to Pet and Yaya....specially their two daughters. Luckily all their family are safe. Pet broke her right leg. By tomorrow, he will be transfer to Sandakan hospital for further treatment on her right leg. He told us that the hospital will put metal inside her leg to join the bone that separate. I felt so sad when I heard that. Until now, I keep on reminding myself to always remember to drive carefully. You never knew what will happen next.

SECOND PRE-TEST FOR ENGLISH

2011-09-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

Next week will be a struggle week for my Year 6 students coz they will sit for their final exam that mean so much for them. I do hope they will do their very best. I taught them everything and I do really hope they well-prepare to sit for the exam. I didn't give them much pressure coz I don't want in a last minute they will feel tension. I just give them advice and some important notes they have to memorize.

This is the first time I taught a good students in second last out of 4 classes for Year 6. I do hope I can help my students to get a good result so that our school's English UPSR achievement will increase. Last year we only manage to get five students straight A's. Hope this year the number increase. English only got 42% achievement. It depends on the questions also. If the question quiet tough for the students, then it's hard for them. But just think positive, they try hard enough to get the best result.

I will not be around with our Year 6 students also for UPSR next week coz I have to go to SK Sri Pantai as one of the monitor with my friend Lisa. This is the first time I involve with this. Will be monitoring until Thursday. Before that, I must not forget about my English assignments and pre-test paper for my Year 2. I have been teaching this Year 2 for 6 years already and I teach 3 classes. I done already Paper 1 questions and for Paper 2 questions, I got already. I took the questions from various type of book. I try checked online questions for Year 2 English last night but so sad I couldn't find the best one. I thought my questions was better than the questions I checked. I used 16 books to do the questions. I just couldn't believe it myself that I have to refer so many book as a resources. But at least I can come out with a quality questions. I knew my students, so I will prepare questions that suits their knowledge according to what I have taught them before.

Workbooks that I used to do my English Pre-Test Paper for Year 2

MY TEACHING TOPIC FOR YEAR 2

2011-09-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

Semester Two Topic- Animals....

Making new words from word given...

Flowers....

I am so happy that I can draw something on the whiteboard for the students to look at and understand what they learn on that day. I am not really good in art but I can show them my very best....at least they knew that their teacher is good in drawing. I want to show them that they also are good in drawing.

Sometimes they laugh at me coz they don't understand what I draw and my drawing was so funny...But, it's good coz they laugh and it gave them courage to draw something better than their teacher...^_^

Multi-Function Centre / All in one - DCP-J125 | Brother

2011-09-03T12:36:00.000+08:00

Plan to buy this printer so I can do my assignments...and I knew lots of project I need to do...

Multi-Function Centre / All in one - DCP-J125 | Brother

NOVEL BY AMY TAN-THE JOY LUCK CLUB

2011-09-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

        I have to read the novel by Amy Tan entitled The Joy Luck Club for my first semester in this TESL degree. I had watched the movie before when I was just in Form 5 if I am not mistaken. I forgot a bit about the story. But I do remember the story is about the Chinese Family try to make a living in America and how they really care about their society and people among them. I am not yet finish reading this novel. I have to finish reading this novel to understand the whole story.

       I have downloaded the literary criticism for this story in order to understand each chapter. But I am not yet print it out. I plan to buy a new printer to print all my assignments and materials that I downloaded from the internet. I asked one of my friend already about the price. I am interested with Brother printer and it cost about RM299. It is quiet cheap I thought coz  I have been searching to all computer shops and most of the price is RM300 above. The cheapest one I saw is RM309. Maybe I can ask my friend to make the price more low...hehehehe.If he want to...

       Last nite, we felt so happy after pray Rosary for our dear DAD's fifth years after he left us. It was such a nice memory to spend your Friday nite pray with your family. Pray Rosary makes you felt really calm and it is the strongest prayer.     

    We pray for our Dear DAD...hope HIS SOUL REST IN PEACE...AMEN. We had a nice dinner after prayer. MUM prepared our GORAN'S CUSTOM. Our custom is different from our other relatives custom. So each of us (siblings) will eat the meal that MUM prepared. Even my young brother CARLOS didn't around, we also did as he and his wife was there with us. At last, MUM will end the custom meal.

WE REALLY MISS YOU DAD SO VERY MUCH....LOVE YOU...

MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE........AMEN........

FIVE YEARS HAD GONE...

2011-09-03T03:46:00.000+08:00

      
        I just couldn't believe it that five years had gone. DAD left us five years ago in 2006 in this day September 2. When I think back again about what happened, it really hurt me so bad. On that day, the day seems so very long. I never forget what happened on that day, I remembered each and everything.
                You do knew what really happened on that day. They did that to you coz they hate you and they were jealous of you.You knew who did that to you. You knew who behind all the things that happened to you. Indeed we all knew what really happened. But, we just leave it all in GOD's hand to do what HE knew for those people who did that to you. 
               Each and every day, we pray to GOD to give us, your family a happy life, full of love, bless and grace. MUM always pray for your soul each and every day. When I come back for my every tutor on Saturday, we always have family gathering on Rosary Prayer.           
             Thank GOD for everything HE did for my family. I am full of love because of the family I had and the pray we always had in our life.

SAFELY HOME...THANK GOD...

2011-08-27T07:11:00.000+08:00

I felt so happy today I reached home around 12.30 p.m. It is early as before. Thank GOD coz today my school already have holiday for Raya. We start our journey around 4 am. We stayed in Full Wah Hotel, me and Anne. Thank you so much coz Anne paid for the hotel. She was so nice and kind. I am so happy to have such a nice friend like her. Thank GOD....
We stop by at Kundasang...so I bought some vegetables for my MUM. I drove Anne's car from Ranau until Tamparuli. Something went wrong with Anne's car....The brake didn't really work very well. Luckily we nearly reached Tamparuli, near the junction to Anne's house. Then I followed Lisa. Lisa sent me back home safely. I felt so happy that our journey went very well...

LETTER OF PROMOTION....

2011-08-24T05:46:00.000+08:00

Finally my letter of promotion arrived yesterday. My friend Rohana gave me. I felt so happy that finally the letter that I have been waiting for is in my hand. I just couldn't believe it...hehehehe.
Now, my grade is DGA 32. It's been 10 years and 1 month I have been teaching...I knew my DAD is happy and will be so proud of me .I know he is in heaven looking down at me and smile for what I have.w about this, I am sure he will be so proud of her daughter. I knew he is happy for me. My salary will raise....hehehehe.
Thank GOD everything went well so far for me. Today also MUM, my elder bro and youngest bro went to Indonesian Council to renew my MUM's passport. Hope everything will be just fine.

GOD please bless my beloved family in everything they did today and on their way home.AMEN.

SO FAR I FELT HAPPY

2011-08-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

My young brother after me...Carlos went to Kuching on August 4. Now, he is happily with his wife. Hope everything will be just fine with them both. So far, bro Carlos always called home in KK and talked with everyone at home everyday...dat's good.
Yesterday I submitted 3 assignments...felt relieved. Even if I didn't have a good grade, at least I submit all. Now, I have to do my 2 major assignments.It is literature and linguistics. It seems very easy though...hehehe.not really, but I have to do my very best. This morning, my twin sis and my youngest bro sent me to the bus station.
So far I felt everything went well. I can managed everything...from my work to my family. I can't wait for my letter...a letter of my promotion... DGA32.Just couldn't believe I have been teaching for 10 years. Seems like yesterday. I knew, if my DAD still alive, he will be so proud of me. Even now, I knew he is smiling, happy and proud of me.

MY WORK...

2011-07-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

I felt so happy today because I have done my work. The first one is arrange my file (Buku Rekod Perkhidmatan-BRP) where on this Monday I have to submit to the office. Then I did my SKT (Sasaran Kerja Tahunan). I am the second last to submit this work. After that, I did a file for English Panel record. Another work that I need to do later on is 'FAIL MEJA'. Hope tonight I can finish it because this Monday I need to print it out. But before that, I have to buy a new file to put everything inside.
I talked with MUM today and I felt happy talking with her. Everyday, twin sis always told me that MUM always pray everyday. And when I talk with MUM, MUM will always advice me to always pray before go to sleep. When I felt sad, talking with MUM makes me happy. MUM never forget to remind me to be a GOOD TEACHER. Indeed I'm trying to do my very best.
I had a very good news. Finally I got my time-based to DGA 32....means my salary will increase..hehehehe.I checked online when my friend told me to do so. Only me and Rohana got this time-based since we both have been teaching for 10 years(huh,time fly by so fast).I told MUM this good news and I share this good news with my beloved family. Now, I just have to wait for the confirm letter so the clerk can do my salary.
Last week from Saturday till Sunday (15th-17th July 2011) I was busy with my Year 6 student for Kem Kecemerlangan UPSR 2011. I will upload the pictures later on when I have a lot of time to write.

THANK GOD that everything went well so far...praise to GOD.

MY WEEKEND...

2011-07-17T09:41:00.000+08:00

My weekend was always full. I always and must have something to do. It is not that I do not want. But I have to do it. It is one of my responsible to do it. This week I have to take care of my 15 students here in Kini College, Cenderawasih Lahad Datu. I stayed with them until tomorrow. All of them can managed themselves very well and I had no problem with them. I hope this motivation camp can give them what they want and need on how to answer and score for their exam.
This morning we have Inter-District Teacher's Day celebration 2011. I am so happy to see my former school teacher specially my primary teachers Madam Sarjid and Madam Cindy. They are my English teachers when I was in Year 1 and 2 and Year 5. They taught me and my twin sis very well and now I am who I am now because of them both. I felt so grateful to have teachers like them. I am proud to be their students. I am now 32 years old and when they saw me and my twin sis, they still remember us. It makes me happy. Mada Cindy received an award by Lahad Datu PPD... it is special award...'Anugerah Khas PPD'. My friends also received the awards. I am so happy to know that.
After that, I continue my work for motivation camp. I fell asleep at the room. It is not that I didn't have enough sleep. It's because I felt very tired. The motivation camp will end by tomorrow around 11 a.m.

GIVING LECTURE........

2011-07-12T09:56:00.000+08:00

I went to SK Tanjung Labian last Saturday to give my lecture, talk or speech on English subject for the Year Six students in that school. Actually my junior back then at college, Mr. Jackson informed me already since last May that he wanted me to be one of the 'penceramah' for their Kem Motivasi Fasa II on English. At first I don't want, because I guess he need another experienced teacher more than I am. But he insisted that he wanted me to be the 'penceramah'. So, I just agree and I meant to help him and his students.
I prepare everything very well before I give my lecture on Saturday and I didn't sleep very well making some addition to my preparation. I was so happy because I learn lots of things about this exam paper. I found some new method to help this students and I have not yet try it out for my students. Maybe within this week I will try to show them all what I did on answering English paper.
Jackson picked me up around 7.30 a.m. and we reached his school around 8.20 a.m. It is quiet far his school from my place even we are in a same area Felda. Only about 36 students in that school will sit for their UPSR exam this September. I didn't use any mic during my talk because I knew my voice is clear and loud enough for the students to hear. I felt so confidence during my talk and I am very sure I gave the students lots of info on how they can write well for their English paper. I am proud I gave something for them and Jackson seem to be happy I came out with something new for his students. I focused on answering the Section C question about Note Expansion. I give them lots of techniques on answering and I am proud for what I did to them. I will try this paperwork for my students. But this week, they will sit for their Excel Paper. So I guess by next week I will show them.
I gave my talk for 4 hours altogether and into 2 parts. So happy I did very well and I am so proud of myself (hehehehe)....By the end of it, the school gave me certificate with a gold frame and a gift. It's Khind electric jug. It was a nice gift and I wanted to give that gift for my dearly beloved MUM. I am sure MUM love it. I will bring the gift by the end of this month because I will go back KK for my second 'kuliah'. Oh I can't wait to go back.....

p/s: MISS MY FAMILY IN KK....(T_T)

END OF JUNE...

2011-06-29T16:18:00.000+08:00

It is almost end of June...half of the year 2011. When I recall back, many things happened for last semester. Good and bad things. But that is life....always there will be ups and down.I should be happy that GOD gave me a chance to live another day until now. It makes me think again what I must do with my life....many things and questions came out from my mind...specially about my love life. Will I ever met someone?will he be my match?.Think about this makes me felt down and when I think about my family, it cheer me up again. Family is the most and precious thing in this life. Whenever you felt down, think about your family and you will be fine.
Now I think so much about my study. Four years ahead of me to finish it. I have to do my very best for my degree. I really hope I can do my very best. I really hope to get excellence for my degree. Thank GOD I have a chance to further my study and do my degree. I do really hope to do my master after get my degree. That is my aim for the future.
This week on Saturday will be my first lecture at IPG Gaya. Sometimes it felt nice to feel the mood again as a student.Sure there will be assignment to do. Meet my 981 colleagues again makes me really happy. There are only 3 of us from Lahad Datu who took this PPG course in Gaya.Me myself and 2 other teacher from SK St. Dominic and SK Unico Desa. Three of us are in different classes. My classmate is Azeanah. The IPG divided students according to year they were born.
I talked with MUM and MUM always remind me of some certain things. What I remember the most is that I must be a good person wherever I go and whatever I do. Don't let others condemn you. That was what MUM always told me. Same also I always remember what DAD said.
So far, I was so happy with what I did to my class. I am so proud for what I have done so far. I love my students so very much. I do care for them. It's like they are my own children. I love to see the changes in them. I want them to feel comfortable in the class....a good and nice environment. I want them to be proud being in that class. Our class won clean class for last week. Hope by this week also they will won the clean class for year two. I must do my very best. I know I can do it. It just I need a gut to do it. By GOD's LOVE....I will try to do my very best.

My PROJECT during WEEKEND

2011-06-19T10:19:00.000+08:00

My BIG BOOK....

My MATHS project

My BIG BOOK...

I went to school this morning for English extra class. I felt disappointed coz none of my students show up to the class. I wonder why they didn't come to the class today. Maybe because I didn't confirm with them yesterday about the class as I did before. Besides, yesterday was school's HARI TERBUKA and today in school there is a scout camping for secondary school students. So, I spent my time doing my BIG BOOK. It was fun doing this. Within 2 hours, I can finished 9 big books. I was so happy to look at all it. Just left another 5 stories to do. Then, I did some stuff for Maths subject. Its Mathematics symbols. I did flowers for the symbols and grasses for the words. It looks very nice actually....hehehe. I planned to paste it on my Year 2 whiteboard. I wanted my students to be happy during lessons and it motivates them actually if they see something nice and beautiful. Tomorrow will be FATHER'S DAY. I do really miss my DAD very much. Tonight I will pray ROSARY for my DAD as I always did before....and for tomorrow the day also.

RELAX AND PREPARE...

2011-06-10T07:44:00.000+08:00

Lovely Thursday....I just stay at home with my MUM, brother and twin sister. Yesterday, went out to post office with Nieza. We both bought stamp (HASIL)...each of us must buy 2 stamps. Then we both hang out at Centre Point. Just walk around...window shopping. We spent much time at Eaton's bookstore. I just bought a pen and a glue for my teaching aids project. After that, we both head our way to 1Borneo. Nieza wanted to go to Kamdar. Her tailor called her and told her that her 'baju kurung' needed to and about half metre of clothes. So nice to hang around at 1Borneo. I saw a beautiful necklace there....a cross necklace. I fell in love soon I saw it. I plan to buy it someday...hehehe...
Tonight, I must show MUM the form that she needed to sign for my post-graduate programme. I can't wait this Saturday for my registration. I discussed with Nieza already and she will pick me up around 7.30 a.m. So I must be ready before she come.
I am so happy today that I download so many stuff about teaching materials (www.sparklebox.co.uk)..... I can't wait to print it out and put it in my Year 2 class. I enjoyed myself download everything

p/s:

LOVELY SUNDAY WITH FAMILY

2011-06-06T08:22:00.000+08:00

It was so nice spending time with family. I was so happy because all my family members were home in this lovely Sunday. Last time, my twin sister were in Lahad Datu when it was school holidays. She were there alone. But now, she is in KK with us....so nice being around with my beloved family.
It is raining now and luckily I just came back from KK market with my youngest brother. We bought 4 kilos of fish for 1 week. The fishes were fresh and cheap rather than bought here for RM8 per kilo. I also bought tapioca because MUM wanted to cook 'bubur manis'....so delicious to eat it during rain. Now I am waiting for the 'bubur' to be cook...hehehe...
Tonight, as usual my family will have our prayer together......A prayer for our Virgin Mary....a Rosary Prayer. I am so happy that we all gather together for this prayer as we always did before since we moved from Lahad Datu.

SCHOOL HOLIDAY...

2011-06-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

So nice to have 2 weeks holiday just stay at home...with my twin sis around. It was so great having lots of good time with my family. My brother went to Kuching last week for Gawai Day celebration with his wife. He just came back early this morning at 12.45am. Me, MUM and my youngest brother fetch him at the airport. He brought 'kuih jala' and 'Sarawak's rice' from his wife's village.
My brother just bought a car also...It's Pesona. That car is a gift for his wife on her birthday....so sweet.
Last few days ago, I spent my time checked my student's English exam paper. There are 4 classes altogether and I just finished 3 classes. Left only Year 6 papers. I have to finish check it before school's open next week.
It's Sunday tomorrow and I hope to go to church with my family. Then after that go to KK and buy fishes for one week stock.

INTER-SCHOOL TEACHER'S DAY CELEBRATION 2011-19th MAY 2011

2011-05-24T08:10:00.000+08:00

The banner was simple yet it looks very nice...

Our English Corner also didn't missed the celebration...

All teachers sang a song KAMI GURU MALAYSIA

Early morning before 'senamrobik'...

Me and Lisa.....always together...

From Left: Kak Haini, me, Fiza and Lisa....

All teachers and students ready for 'senamrobik'....

After 'senamrobik'...'sukaneka'...we involved students...

So wet....everyone tried to escape from the balloon filled with water....

'Pancinglah Daku'...

Me and my team. We lost but we were very happy....

All teachers and students were very happy....

From left: Sal, Kak Haini, me and Suhaila...posed before the ceremony started...

With all the dancers....IGAL-IGAL...

Me with Sal...

All the Year 6 students performed choir...

Me and Eden....posed after the formal ceremony....

Very nice....^_^

I received an award...GURU AKTIF, CERGAS DAN CERDAS
(voted by all students in my school)-THANK YOU...

Our school celebrated Teacher's Day on 19th May 2011...other schools celebrated exactly on the date of Teacher's Day..16th May 2011. We all were very busy with exam preparation for the next week. So, we chose Thursday 19th May 2011 to celebrate Teacher's Day.
I felt so happy on that day. I had so much fun....everything went well as plan. I am proud to be a teacher in this school. Teaching for almost 10 years in this school meant a lot to me....so many memories to treasure....

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY

2011-05-17T08:27:00.000+08:00

I am so happy that there is a day in a year to celebrate my job.....TEACHER. I am so proud to be a teacher. Thank GOD I fulfilled my ambition as a teacher. I really wanted to be a teacher since I was in Year 2 (eight years old). Never thought my dream came true. I was so happy for who I am.
Being as a teacher is not as easy as people always said....working half day and lots of holidays. They just didn't realize what we did after school and during school's holidays.
I will try my very best to be a good teacher. I will bear in my mind what my late FATHER always said.....BE A GOOD TEACHER and BE HONEST WITH YOUR JOB....That is what I will always do everyday.
I hope I can finished my degree in four years ahead without any problems. Then I plan to take my master....that is my plan for my future education as a teacher.

PROGRAM TUNAS GEMILANG BY INSTITUT SUKAN NEGARA

2011-05-14T04:57:00.000+08:00

Three of us involved to monitor our students..Lisa and Kak Haini

Me and Eden took care of Year 2 students....

Baling bola keranjang

Lisa measured the distance of the ball....

Lari 20m ulang-alik....

Lompat jauh berdiri....

Year 2 students....

Friday...13th May 2011...Our school was chosen by Institut Sukan Negara to find a new talented students who are good in sports. We are one from 10 schools chosen to do this programme. There are 10 teachers from my school involved with this programme and I am proud and happy I am one of the 10 teachers involved. Nothing much I have to do...just take care and monitoring our students. Before that, 2 days ago we chose students which we thought can do well in sports. I was chosen to find Year 2 students (eight years old) since I am teaching English for these Year 2 students. I chose 15 boys and 15 girls. Everything went well during this programme and our school managed to finish the programme earlier than expected time. Teachers that came to evaluate our students were very happy that we managed everything very well and they don't have to waste much time than other school that they tested. Institute Sukan Negara gave each 10 of us RM10 for helping them with the programme....that is nice. Even if there is no payment, we will do our job willingly....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

2011-05-09T08:39:00.000+08:00

WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH MUM...
WILHELMINA WAITUNA KUMANIRENG

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MUM. YOU ARE THE BEST MUM WE EVER HAD.....THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR EVERYTHING YOU DID FOR US. YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ALL OF US.
THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING US SUCH A LOVELY AND NICE MUM WE EVER HAD. MAY GOD BLESS OUR DEAR MUM ALWAYS AND FOREVER...AMEN.

TAWAU FOR A PROGRAMME "STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE WITH ENGLISH"

2011-05-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

It's 3.33 am....and I still cant sleep....and later at 6 am I have to wake up to get ready and heading my way to Tawau for a short course maybe or just a sharing for this programme....I have no idea. Maybe when I'm there then I knew what will happen. The programme will be held at PKG TAWAU...
At 7.30 me and my friend Anne will go to Lahad Datu town. We will take express bus to Tawau (Tung Ma) around 2pm. But at 1pm, we must be at the bus booth to buy our tickets to Tawau coz they didnt open a ticket by booking. We will stay in Tawau for 2 days (3rd and 4th May 2011). We are not sure if we can make it to go back Felda on Wednesday coz the programme will end at 5pm. Hope it will end early so me and Anne can go back to Felda that evening. If not, then we both have to stay in Lahad Datu or just stay in Tawau. Not sure yet.....just see what will happen on Wednesday....
This morning before go to Tawau, I have to call MUM and tell her everything. I know MUM will be worried bout me. Last week when she knew I will go to Tawau, she called and explained everything that I must care bout my attitude to be good, wear something nice and good and the most important is I must always take care of myself....I will MUM...THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR CARE, TENDER AND SWEET LOVE....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MUM..

PARLIAMENTARY STYLE ENGLISH DEBATE STATE LEVEL 2011

2011-05-02T18:30:00.000+08:00

posed after the ceremony...

with my friend....Felix....

with all the URUSETIA and PENGERUSI TEKNIK NEGERI....MDM KORETI....

Action Song performance by students from SK SEPAGAYA....

Debate final between SANDAKAN and TENOM....and the winner is from GOVERNMENT team that is SANDAKAN.....CONGRATULATIONS!!!

SUKANTARA SKS16 FOR 2011

2011-04-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

with Lisa and Asmar...

L-R: NORAZIAH, LISA, ME, MAZURAH & ASMAR

Short briefing from Mr. Edi bout "MERENTAS DESA"...

year 1,2 and 3 pupils....so cute

My team...BLUE (BAHAMAN)....

SUHARTI, KAK NABILA, ME & KAK BIBA

Relax....waiting for next thing to do...

Those kids like to play with the mud...

MALAYSIAN TEAM....SOME OF THE TEACHERS...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD....WE REALLY MISS YOU SO MUCH

2011-04-18T12:40:00.000+08:00

It's my DAD 74th birthday today. I do miss you so much DAD. I gave a prayer for you that you always be fine there in another world. I knew you will listen to my prayer and you knew I always pray for you. Thank you so much for everything you did for us. I will always try my very best in life.
You always told us to be good to everyone....and we did as you said. Although you gone and far away from us, your LOVE make us feel you around. On this day of your birthday DAD....we all wishing you HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD...MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE...AMEN.

PALM SUNDAY....

2011-04-17T19:42:00.000+08:00

It's PALM SUNDAY today and I couldn't make it to go to church for this important day. I felt so sad....I hope my MUM, elder brother and youngest brother can make it to church at Holy Family Telipok. Here only me and I'm not comfortable to go to church in LD. Even I couldn't make it, I will pray here alone. I know GOD will listen to my pray.Today also I felt so sad I couldn't make it to watch my twin sis futsal tournament. I have lots of work to be done. I hope and pray my twin sis can do her very best in this game. But I worried one thing that is her knee. She felt something bout her knee. I do hope she will be fine. Even I can't be there with her, my prayer and spirit are always with her. She knew it ;-)....

I WILL TRY MY BEST TO BE A GOOD TEACHER

2011-04-17T19:27:00.000+08:00

SEORANG GURU BIASA

1. Menulis rancangan mengajar

2. Menanda kedatangan murid/pelajar

3. Menanda buku kerja murid. 1 murid = 3 buah buku 1 kelas = 45 orang murid Jumlah Buku bagi 1 kelas = 135 Buah buku Seorang guru akan mengajar sekurang-kurangnya 5 kelas > 5 X 135 = 675 Buah buku.

4. Menghadiri/ mengendalikan pelbagai jenis mesyuarat - Mesyuarat JKK sekolah - Mesyuarat Guru - Mesyuarat Sukan - Mesyuarat Panitia seorang guru mungkin ada 2 panitia - Mesyuarat PIBG - Mesyuarat Kelab Guru - Mesyuarat Kokurikulum - Mesyuarat Program lebih dari 6 program anjuran sekolah Hari Guru Maulidur Rasul Maal Hijrah Kemerdekaan Bulan Bahasa Hari Anugerah Sekolah Selamat

5. Aktiviti kokurikulum, kadang-kadang seorang guru bertanggungjawab terhadap 2 unit - Perjumpaan unit uniform kekadang hadir Sabtu - Perjumpaan permainan tambah untuk pertandingan pulak - Perjumpaan persatuan / kelab - Latihan rumah sukan setiap minggu

6. Menghadiri pelbagai jenis kursus dalaman / luaran

7. Mengisi pelbagai jenis borang. Borang keluar masuk & buku keluar masuk Borang emis / hrmis/ label Buku Hadir Kursus / balik dari kursus Borang Fleksi PMR / SPM Borang kehadiran murid ke kelas fleksi Buku Pemantauan / salah laku murid Buku catatan relief guru Buku tugasan mingguan Laporan mingguan Laporan keceriaan Borang menghantar dan mengambil kertas peperiksaan selepas mengawas peperiksaan Buku Kokurikulum murid Borang permarkahan kokurikulum

7. Menghantar murid ke Klinik

8. Mengisi maklumat murid di dalam file peribadi

9. Menceriakan bilik darjah selalunya duit poket sendiri

10. Mengisi markah ujian/ peperiksaan

11. Mengisi data murid SMM

12. Menangani masalah disiplin murid / pelajar

13. memasukkan data disiplin di dalam e-disiplin

14. Melayani karenah Ibu Bapa / penjaga

15. Mengecat sekolah

16. Membersihkan bilik / stor / bilik khas

17. Menganjurkan program-program wajib (Hari terbuka dsb)

18. Menyiapkan program Head Counting

19. Melaksanakan pelan tindakan PPD, JPN (seperti KIA2M, etc)

20 Menyiapkan file gerko, persatuan, kelab dan sebagainya

21. Menghantar murid ke pertandingan atau kejohanan

22. Mengendali masalah / kebajikan murid

23. Menunggu semua murid pulang sebelum guru pulang.

24. Mengadakan kelas tambahan, kelas intensif dan sebagainya

25. Menyediakan Bahan Bantu Mengajar (BBM)

26. Berniaga (jualan hari kantin, etc)

27. Menjaga kebajikan murid / ke rumah murid bermasalah

28. Bekerja lebih masa (menyiapkan pentas, backdrop, banner dsb)

29. Menyediakan kertas peperiksaan / ujian

30. Menanda kertas peperiksaan / ujian. 1 subjek 2 paper – 2 2 x 45 = 90 90 x 5 = 450 kertas

31. Perkembangan staf

32. Mengendalikan perhimpunan murid

33. Gotong-royong kadang2 guru perlu bawa semua alatan

* Terdapat lagi tugasan sebagai seorang guru terutama yang ada tugas khas….. tetapi cukuplah sekadar ini untuk nilaian kita bahawasanya tugas seorang guru amatlah berat. Walaupun kita sering menganggap cikgu cuti banyak dan sebagainya. Tetapi hakikatnya tugas seoran guru amatlah berat. Jarang sekali bagi pekerjaan lain membawa balik kerja-kerja pejabat ke rumah, berbanding guru yang terpaksa menanda buku dan menulis rancangan mengajar sehingga lewat malam. Sungguh besar pengorbanan mereka dalam mendidik anak bangsa kita.

I WILL WAIT FOR YOU

2011-04-09T23:36:00.001+08:00

I'm so sorry for what I have done. I know I have hurt you. It was my fault and my mistake. I never thought I done something that makes you really hurt. I didn't mean to. But it already happened. I know I hurt you so much. But deep inside, I really hope you can understand my situation.
I just knew how difficult it is for you. I let you down. I want you to know that I didn't mean to. You make me realize my mistake and what I have done. TQ SO MUCH, MY DEAR....
You have been in trouble and yet you tried so hard to overcome it and be with me. But I hurt you in the end. I wait for you. But you just watch me. Watch me hurt you. I wish I listen to my heart. Why you didn't came forward and see me? You blame it on me...I wish I could turn back the time and be there.....wait for you.
Now, you left me alone.....but one thing for sure...I WILL WAIT FOR YOU....

p/s : TODAY IS MY YOUNG BROTHER CARLOS 30th BIRTHDAY...

MY BRO CARLOS WEDDING (12.03.2011)

2011-03-17T08:45:00.000+08:00

BEFORE ENTER THE BALL ROOM
(followed by IBAN DANCERS - DIANA'S(my in-law's NIECES AND COUSINS)

BOTH OF THEM LOOK NICE AND PERFECT...

WHAT A NICE FAMILY PIC....

VERY NICE FAMILY PIC

BEFORE LEAVING THE HOUSE TO THE HOTEL...
(inside my bro's room)

MUM AND BRO LOOK VERY GREAT WITH DIANA'S FATHER...

INSIDE THE BALL ROOM BEFORE THE WEDDING CEREMONY

I LOVE THIS BACKDROP....

So nice that finally my brother's wedding done already in Kuching, Sarawak. Only my younger brother didn't attend the ceremony in Pennview Hotel, Kuching. We felt so happy and the memories there will always on our mind. We will cherish all the moments there. Thank GOD that everything went well with the ceremony. On 11 March 2011, was my brother blessed marriage in Registration Department of Kuching. I couldn't attend the ceremony coz I was still in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Only my MUM, elder brother and twin sister attended the ceremony. Me and my youngest brother only came on morning of the ceremony. They picked us up at the airport and we went to the restaurant for some feast.
MUM was so happy during our time in Kuching. I never saw MUM always smile and laugh. I like the way MUM gave her joke. Everyone was so happy there. I even had a chance met someone there. It was nice knowing him. He was good and kind. I was happy being with him. Me and my family felt so happy there. We left our car at Kota Kinabalu Airport (Terminal 2) on morning of 11th March 2011 til morning of 14th March 2011. We paid RM76 for the parking. We hope that we will have another chance to come over to Kuching again....hope this coming Gawai on June....

ACTIVITIES

2011-02-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

So many activities happened since last two weeks ago. My school was very busy doing this and that. But so far because of all the commitment of the teachers and a good teamwork makes all work done very well even we all felt very tired. Since last month we busy with sports day. Then Maulidur Rasul this week and next week. I have to help my friend doing a banner for Year 2 pupils.
Yesterday (Saturday), my school held a programme on emergency. As usual I am the master of the ceremony. It was very fine and I felt comfortable being the master of the ceremony. I think I did well.
I felt so happy that my team Biru (Bahaman) won 4x100m for teachers (both men and women). I am so proud of my team. Even yesterday 'sukaneka' we did won even we cheated along the game....hahaha. I knew some of the teachers not satisfied. But luck is on our side...hehehe.
I bought already a ticker for my brother to go to Kuching this March 2. He wants to plan and make some arrangement for his wedding day. I hope by next week, the door gift will reach KK. I can't wait to go back to KK by next week. Really miss my family specially my dear beloved MUM.

SATURDAY IN FELDA...

2011-02-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

I spent my weekend in Felda. Usually I will go back to Lahad Datu coz my twin sis is there. But now, my twin sis went back to KK already and I'm alone here...huhuhu...so sad when I think about this. It remind me of my time spent during weekend with my twin sis. We both will go around Lahad Datu town...try to find something new. Then we will eat at Nasi Ria. That is our port. Now, I only spent my time in my room. Nothing much to do. Just online my Facebook then surf some info.
Today, I have to manage door gift for my brother's marriage. So far, we got a small basket with handkerchief. Maybe will add some item for that door gift. Thank God my friend Sarmila Ila wanted to buy it for us from Nilai in West Malaysia. Just that I have to add some money for the post payment. I discussed with my twin sis already and she agreed with that door gift.
Tonight I will stay and sleep at Lisa's house. She was alone coz all her housemate went back to their hometown. Tomorrow maybe we both got things to do...maybe hang out in Cenderawasih...so nice my friend Syuhada left her car under my care...hehehehe. She even let me drive her car to wherever I want to go...hehehehe. But I will not take granted for that. But before go to Lisa's house, I have to iron my clothes first.
I got lots of things going on my mind now...but so far its okay...THANK GOD....Pray do help me.

SO FAR EVERYTHING WAS FINE...THANK GOD

2011-02-11T11:30:00.000+08:00

I am so happy that everything went very well....my work and my family. I went to Kuching last week for Chinese New Year holiday (1 week) with my young brother to discuss about his marriage with his in-law family. My work was fine also so far. I know lots of things needed to be done. But I don't know why I didn't really worried about it. Instead, I felt relief. Maybe coz I know I can do it all. Just that I need time and space. But I must remember that I don't have to waste so many times. I set on my mind now what to do. Still I haven't do my list of things to do.
Thank GOD for each and every day I live my life....YOU ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND I FEEL YOU....AMEN........

NAMES

2011-01-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

Funny things happened in school today. It's all about names. I had a big laugh about this story on names. The first is my students Year 2. I asked him to send some books to other class. He told me that there is a teacher in that class. I asked who is the teacher?And he was so confident answering me, Cikgu Samaruddin!!. Instead the real name of that teacher is 'Imaduddin. I asked again who is the name?And again he was confident said "Cikgu Samaruddin". I laughed so loud in the staff room. That teacher always entered his class, wearing a nametag. Sure his friends will always said the name of the teacher. His friends didn't even told him the name of that teacher. I told this story to that teacher. He laughed also.hahahahaha.... Today, there is only 6 pupils in that class. It's Saturday, so maybe some of the pupils felt sleepy to wake up.
Then in a class, I asked that student again the name of the teacher and again he was confident said the wrong name.Huhuhu...I corrected him. When I did my work in the class, came a mother gave me a letter to give to the class teacher. So I keep the letter. I said, "Ok kak, nanti saya bagi surat ni dengan guru kelas mereka, Cikgu Asma". The class teacher's name is Asmar actually. Then came this little girl told me."Teacher,bukan Cikgu Asma, Cikgu Asmar". I laughed again coz this girl heard the name of their class teacher.
After that class, I went to other class again. I asked one of the student to take some papers at the office from Pakcik Hairi. When they came with the papers, I asked him. Who gave u the papers? He said "Cikgu Hairi".....Again I laughed. Maybe they thought people in the office is a teacher.
I helped my friends coloured a banner for our school 'SUKANTARA' by next week on Wednesday and Thursday (26th and 27th January 2011). The banner finished already. Thank GOD.

MY TWIN SIS BACK TO KK....

2011-01-21T17:05:00.000+08:00

Finally after 14 years working with Hiap Hing, my twin sister finally decided to quit the job and leave the company. She doesn't want to quit the job at first but don't know what happened, things didn't went well as it seems to be. My twin sis worked so hard in that company. She did her work very well and she was honest with her job. She gave her full commitment for her position as the storekeeper. I should learn from her the way she handle her work...But seems like her boss didn't appreciated what my twin sis have done to their company. I wonder what will happen to that company after my twin sis leaving them. I really wanted to know it. Deep inside my twin's heart, I know she was hurt. Don't worry sis. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

Her last day working is on Monday ,7th January 2011 and on the next day Tuesday, 18th January 2011, my twin sis went to EON Bank to take her car card coz we already finished paid our car and now the car belong to us.(Thank GOD). Then, my twin sis went to Public Bank to make her ATM card. I think I also want to open an account at the Public Bank. My twin sis explained the benefit of using the ATM card and I was interested with that. I do hope by next week I can go down to town and make my own ATM card.
I called home this afternoon and talked with my twin sis. She was fine then. She told me that MUM likes watching Asian Food Channel and MUM will talk about the food and wanted to eat the food.

After Chinese New Year, maybe my twin sis will work in a new place. One of her friend, a driver recommended her to work in their company. Sis agreed to work there. May GOD bless my twin sis for all her hardworking job and she will be blessed with all the good fortune.

PREPARATIONS....

2011-01-16T07:00:00.000+08:00

My young brother will get married by this March. Oh I can't wait for the day to come. I will help my brother manage everything well. He is the first in the family that will get married. Hope things will come very good so everything will be just fine. I have to order souvenirs for the wedding. I always listen to my friends story about their marriage and their brother or sister's marriage...how they handle and settle the problem. Now I'm facing the situation. I will try my very best to manage my brother's marriage. My brother was so lucky to have such a nice and good wife like Diana Nerin. Thank GOD.
Yesterday 14 Jan 2011(Friday)I went to immigration office took my passport. I plan to go to Sarawak this Chinese New Year Holiday with my young brother Carlos. He wanted me to accompany him there manage his wedding. Besides, we will have discussion with my brother's in-law family about the wedding preparation.

WELCOME 2011

2011-01-02T14:16:00.000+08:00

WELCOME 2011........Year had came and go. Time fly by as years gone by. It's been 3 years already me and my twin sister away from our family. Three times we both spent our new year without family around us. So, me and my twin sis spent our time watched the fireworks...Lisa was also with us. She came on 29th Dec 2010 followed Khairul.So nice coz it was just near my sis place. There is no new year celebration in Lahad Datu town. So, people just do their own things. I don't really like those young boys on their bike...(rempit). I wish all the police can take action with these boys.
I really hope for this year 2011, my life will change. I wish for the best in everything. I will try my very best for my family. So many plans for this year. I do really hope all hope and dreams will come true.
Tomorrow (2nd Jan 2011) there will be a meeting. So many things will come out tomorrow. I just prepare and listen to all the tasks that will be given to me. So far I knew, I will still be the English Head Panel.
I really miss my family in KK....specially my MOM. I called home just now,talked with MOM.So happy to hear her voice. MOM always said to me and sis "PRAY BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP". So, every time before we go to sleep, we will pray.

MY HOME XMAS DECORATION...

2010-12-31T13:41:00.001+08:00

My young brother Carlos and Pielot helped my twin sis with the lights...

My twin sis did all the X-mas tree decorations....

MEET MY DEAR....ELIZABETH JIPANIS

2010-12-22T10:01:00.000+08:00

X-MAS DECORATION AT 1BORNEO....very nice.

WITH MY DEAR BETH...THANK YOU.

I MISS MOMENT LIKE THIS WITH MY DEAR BETH........

After 4 years, finally I met my dear Beth. It is our pay day yesterday, Monday (20th Dec 2010)..so we both had a chance to see each other. She was so busy before...I understand she got a commitment to her family now. She got 3 children....2 girls and 1 boy. I am so happy for her. The time I spent my time with her....I will always cherish it.
We spent our time since morning we met at Wawasan Plaza. Then we went to post office coz Beth wanted to renew her driving license. Then we went to 1Borneo. Beth wanted to buy a sandal. The sandal was so nice with her. She felt comfortable wore the sandal. We had our lunch at Bamboo Cafe. We go around the 1B and we took some pictures as our memory. I was so happy for the time I spent with her. I really hope to spend again my time with her. So many things left untold. I need to see my dear Beth again. There is an important thing I need to tell her. I forgot to tell her yesterday. Hope for the next time we meet, I will not forget.

ASTRO BEYOND

2010-12-19T06:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy that we got our astro beyond today. The people who install the astro was here around 11.30 a.m. They called my young brother Carlos last night that they will come over around afternoon. But they were here early than we expected. There are two of them. I guess they both are father and son. After they finished installed, I asked them to have their rest first, then drank Coke and eat some nuts. Now, my family really enjoyed this astro beyond...I do really satisfied.

The decoder was smaller and light than the previous decoder.

There is also installation guide book and a quick guide on how to access to all features for astro beyond.

OUR NEW LCD TV-SAMSUNG

2010-12-18T05:04:00.000+08:00

Our 46' FULL HD LCD TV - SAMSUNG

I was so happy that I bought a new LCD TV for my family. It's SAMSUNG LCD TV with Full HD....and it's 46 inches. It is my dream to have this kind of TV.
Thank GOD my dream came true.

I went to cinema with my friend Lisa last week and we watched 3D movie....THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA:The Voyage and The Dawn Treader. That is my first experience watching this 3D movie. I felt so great....felt like I was with the actor and seems like u were with them. The Prince Caspian was so handsome....felt in love with him...hehehehehehe.
I plan again to buy 3D TV....last time I saw this 50 inches Samsung 3D tv...RM9,999....erm...I will buy that TV soon. Now my family just have to wait for astro beyond. My young brother Carlos already called astro asked them 'bout astro beyond. They said have to wait for about 10 days. Hope before Christmas, we will have our astro beyond.

TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY DEAR BELOVED MUM.....

2010-12-14T08:58:00.000+08:00

SO DELICIOUS THIS PORRIDGE I COOKED....

Mum was not feeling very well that day. Suddenly, she felt her head spin around and she said she couldn't see anything. It was so dark she said. I was scared that time. I'm afraid something wrong might happen to my mum. I was at home that day coz it's school's holidays, so I took care of Mum. My sis-in-law was around also, so she looked after Mum also. She knew something had happened to my mum.
That day, I cooked porridge for my MUM. It was so delicious (yum,yum,yum)...I felt so happy I was around that time and finally MUM felt much better. Thank GOD for being around always with my family...

MY FAMILY FROM KK TO LD-VISITED OUR DEAR FATHER'S GRAVE

2010-12-14T08:36:00.000+08:00

WE TRULY MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH DAD........
MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE...AMEN...

I was so happy that my beloved family came to Lahad Datu on that day....Wednesday (17th Nov 2010)...it's been 2 years they left Lahad Datu and on that day finally they did it to reach Lahad Datu...So sad that they had to go back on that day also because the situation is not good to stay and spend one night in Lahad Datu...I really miss these moments....

MY YOUNGER AND YOUNGEST BROTHER From L-R : MATHIAS MOTI PETRUS GORAN & FIRONIMUS KUDA GORAN PETRUS

MY YOUNGEST BROTHER WITH MY DEAR BELOVED MUM....

MY BELOVED MUM AND MY TWIN SISTER : CRISTINA BOTA PETRUS GORAN

MY FOUR BELOVED BROTHERS.....

MUM WITH MY FOUR BROTHERS...

WITH MY BELOVED SIBLINGS....

AT MY COUSIN'S GRAVE : WILHELMUS WURIAMA GORAN

AT MY COUSIN'S GRAVE : YOHANES SUBAN GORAN

ALMOST END OF THE YEAR....

2010-12-02T09:18:00.000+08:00

Never thought it is December now....time fly by so fast. So many things happen in my life. I face it no each and every day....pray things will be better for me and my beloved family.

Thank GOD I'm with my family this holidays. I can spent as much time with them. Do all the nice things, chat and having fun with my family. So sad, my dear twin sis still in LD. But she will come during Xmas. Oh,I can't wait to decorate my house with all the Xmas stuff...

I already bought new curtain at Jakel Silk House....already ordered them to sew the curtain. Just waiting to take it on this 20th Dec. Me and my twin sis also bought some Xmas dolls to put it under Xmas tree. So many dolls..maybe have to decorate it in other place like near the TV. Will see how it is going to be....

HEAVEN KNOWS EVERYTHING

2010-11-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

FINALLY MY DEAR FAMILY IN LAHAD DATU

2010-11-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

I was so much happy that my dear beloved family finally came to Lahad Datu (17th November 2010) after more than 2 years leaving the place. Me and my twin sister waited for them to come. They started their journey around 4.30 am and reached Lahad Datu around 11.00 a.m. They stopped by around Ranau area and took some beautiful pictures....the Mount Kinabalu scenery.

We visited our dear beloved father's grave. Two years my dear MOM and brother didn't lit candles on father's grave. I'm so happy they did it finally.

After that, me and twin sister took a bus to town.We had our lunch at my twin sister's place. Me and twin sister ordered chicken rice....we also bought cakes. My dear family went back to KK around 6.30 p.m. They reached KK around 2 a.m. the next day (18th November 2010).

THANK GOD MY FAMILY REACHED HOME SAFELY.........

MY FAMILY WILL COME....

2010-11-16T09:59:00.000+08:00

I am so happy that tomorrow....17th Nov 2010 my family from KK will come over to Lahad Datu. They will start their journey early around 6 a.m.Oh, God I can't wait for them to come. We plan to visit our beloved father's grave tomorrow. It's been two years my dear mother and brothers did't lit a candle on father's grave. Sure MOM will be very happy. She miss DAD so much. When we were in LD last time, every weekend we always visited our DAD's grave. Hope they will have a nice and safe journey. Please GOD guide and be with my family on their journey tomorrow.

My twin sister and I will wait for them at the cemetery. We will bring some flowers and candles. I will pray that everything will be just fine and great tomorrow.

MAY GOD'S LOVE BE WITH MY DEAR BELOVED FAMILY.

THE GOMANTONG CAVE

2010-10-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Walk along the way to the cave....

So nice to see this green plants.....

I love this view....

I felt great even it's creepy inside the cave....

The wall of the cave.....

I really love this pic that I took....its like LOVE-SHAPED

It's like LOVE-SHAPED again......

Even inside the cave....there are plants...

I dont like the sticky thing under my shoes....but I forced myself to walk.

Front view of the cave....

Front view of the cave...

Before entering the cave....

I took this picture before went out of the cave...

I went to Gomantong Cave with my two other friends. It was a sunny day the day was so great. Even only three of us visited that cave, it was not a problem. Before we reached the cave, we had to walk about 10 mins. There is a wild monkeys...I don't know which species of the monkeys. But I had to be very careful, coz I'm afraid the monkey will grab my bag. I took some of the pictures inside the cave even im using just a Canon camera....not like what my friends always used the good one.

FROM THE HEART Lyrics - ANOTHER LEVEL

2010-10-28T15:52:00.000+08:00

FROM THE HEART Lyrics - ANOTHER LEVEL

SANDAKAN

2010-10-19T14:07:00.001+08:00

It was such a nice journey for me and my two other friends....Bunnz and Lisa. We went to Sandakan last week on Saturday (16th October 2010) around 4.30 p.m. It was in a hurry. We didn't plan to go anywhere, but Bunnz and Lisa were bored and they thought on having some activities. So we decided to go to Sandakan. I didn't had much money in my hands to go around Sandakan. But Lisa were nice. She paid for the hotel and entrance fee to Sepilok. Our journey was so great. No problem at all. We stayed at Hotel Ramai.....near the bowling and the cinema. But so sad we didn't even had a chance to play bowling and watch the movie.

Our first journey on Sunday, we went to Sepilok. We went there early before 10 o'clock because we want to see the orang utan during their feeding time. So many tourists came. We took a lot of pictures there. Then, we went to Rainforest Discovery Centre.....along the way from Sepilok. It was Bird Festival held there from 15th to 17th October 2010. We went there and were very excited. So many activities. We took the chance visited inside the Rainforest Discovery Centre gallery and the admission is FREE. We were were very excited....and for sure lots of pictures have been taken. Our last journey is Gomantong Cave. The journey took us about 20 minutes and the road were creepy. Big forest surrounded us and there is no house about 2km to reach the office. Only 3 of us (visitors) went inside the Gomantong Cave. That is my second time enter the cave since I entered Madai Cave on 2004. I was scared but I really want to go inside the cave and see everything. Thank God everything went well with us....

It was such a nice trip. In one day, we managed to go to 3 places....

FACEBOOK....

2010-10-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy that I had my FACEBOOK. I had a chance to know new friends...add them to my list and the best is I finally found my old friends from my primary school. I'm so happy with that. I can share all my thoughts...my photos....and I can give comments to my friends status and photos. But some people didn't really use FACEBOOK in a good way. What I meant is...some people express their hatred towards others in their status. They showed their angriness on something in FACEBOOK. All their friends will know what happen with them and people will judge you easily with what u said.

As for me, I don't want people to look at me in a different ways in my FACEBOOK. I want people to like my FACEBOOK when they read something.I do really hope that in coming days, I will do my very best to improve my FACEBOOK.

MY FATHER'S GRAVE

2010-09-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy today that me and my twin sister had a chance to visit our father's grave. We last visited the grave is on March.....nothing much change, just that the grass is getting taller but it looks nice. On our next visit, we both will clean the grave.

I was so touch when I lid the candle coz I do miss my father so very much....and me and my twin sister is the only family member in Lahad Datu...my mum and brothers are all in KK. Hope that one day, they all will come to Lahad Datu and visit our father's grave.

My NIKE

2010-07-22T05:56:00.000+08:00

Wah...I like dis pic...look at that shopping bag of NIKE

I like the colour and the pattern...match to all kind of outfit.

The price of my NIKE shoes....RM 349.00

Last school's holiday, I bought a new NIKE shoes with my friends, Salbaherna and Wani.Both of them also bought NIKE shoes. My shoes is the most expensive than both of them. I wanted the shoes like Sal, but there is no other size for me.
Only my MOM, twin sis and my youngest brother knew about this shoes when I first bought it. I do really satisfied with this shoes...hehehe.
So far, I haven't try yet that shoes for outing of sports...and I also bought a NIKE socks. It was so nice looking at all the shoes in NIKE's boutique...so many choices. I plan to buy a futsal shoes. Hope I can make it ;-)........

FRIENDS...

2010-07-11T08:28:00.000+08:00

Friends is important to us...in our life...
Our family can be our friends...friends is not always someone that same age with you. It can be anyone that you knew. Sometimes it is not easy to have a best and good friend. But if you knew that person so much, that person can be your best friend. If he or she always by your side, through good and bad times....that person is your best friend....
I don't know if I already hurt someone's feeling. I'm not sure. Maybe I am or maybe I am not. I just try to be the best I can to all my friends. I always remember what my dear father told me....JUST IGNORE WHAT PEOPLE HAVE DONE, AS LONG YOU ARE NOT LIKE THEM.And this quote, I will always keep it in my heart and mind in everyday of my life. I don't care if people have hurt me or not. I just have to be good to them and be a better person....because this is who I am...
I don't want to be a hipocrite person...and I don't want just being nice. I want to be honest to all my friends.

2010 FIFA WORLD CUP

2010-07-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

BRAZIL......YES!!!But my team lost to Netherlands...

I felt so sad and dissapointed.Maybe they felt so confident that they can beat this orange team.In the end?They lost 2-1....

I wish 4 years ahead,they will bring their revenge and become the world best footbal team. I don't want to watch football now because my team is not on the list...But I like Spain and Netherlands. This 2 teams really shocked everyone that they showed to the world they can be in 2010 World Cup Final....

Tomorrow..Friday (9th July 2010), there will be motivation programme for Year 6 students...and again I will be the emcee. This programme will starts at 2pm and will end at 9 pm. And again on Saturday, there will be a "Sekolah Ganti" for Raya.That is good.Means that during Raya, we will having 2 weeks holiday...hehehehe. I can't wait again to go back home. My MOM worried so much about me and my twin sis. Last night, MOM asked my brother to send me SMS, asked how me and my sis doin. I know how my MOM felt. She was so worried about her 2 daughters.

My twin sis wants me to go back to LD this week after school...and I am not sure to go back. I have a lot of work to do....my SBOA reports for 4 classes not yet finish. But then, this week my team Hippies FC will having a game against Skill Girls....I haven't decide to go back or not..let's just see how things going.

SCHOOL'S HOLIDAY

2010-06-18T04:00:00.000+08:00

The school holidays almost end after 3 weeks stayed at home....and today I got a chance to write something in my blog....
Last Saturday, Salbaherna came over from LD to KK to attend Julie's marriage last Sunday on 13th June 2010. We both stayed in 3 hotels...the first hotel is Ruby Hotel, second hotel is De'Leeton and the third is Kinabalu Borneo Hotel....and Wanie also join us both in the hotel on Monday.
For 3 days, we do enjoyed ourselves...we went to Suria to watch a new movie...The A-Team....that movie was so great...I wish to watch that movie again with my family......
Yesterday, I sent Salbaherna to the KKIAirport with my two brothers. After that, we went to Centre Point. I bought Celcom Broadband for my brothers.
So far, this holiday, I do enjoy myself so very much.Hope the coming holiday will be very GREAT.

I MISS MY TWIN SIS.....

2010-05-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

I really miss my twin sis....she's in Hanoi, Vietnam now travelling alone with a group of people. Usually every morning, I will send her sms asking how she was doin. But from today I couldn't send her sms...I miss her already...she will be back on this 28th May 2010. I don't know what time her flight from KL...

I do hope my twin sis will enjoy herself there in Hanoi...I asked her to take a lot of pictures there.I can't wait to know her story there....

Last Saturday, my Hippies FC took part in futsal tournament organized by Dynason....and they got third place again. My twin tried to call me there in Taliwas but my friend's number couldn't be reach because there is no line there...I thought my twin sis is going to Taiwan but she's going to Hanoi, Vietnam.....I can't wait to see my twin sis back from Vietnam....

GOD BLESS MY DEAREST TWIN SIS......AMEN........

EXAM IS OVER

2010-05-19T02:02:00.000+08:00

It was the last today for exam since last week. Now, I have to finish marking all the papers and give the marks to the class teachers. Last week I went back on Saturday to help my twin sister bought things and helped her prepared before she go travel...I just couldn't believe my twin sister will travel to Taiwan...wahhh...she was so lucky enough her boss paid everything for her and even will give her some pocket money....I don't want to go back early actually, but my MUM asked me to help my sis..besides, I want to go back actually...
It will be my twin sis first time travelling..she never travel before...even never been in a plane before...we bought two boxes of travelling sickness tablets...in case my sis will get dizzy or headache, that tablet will help her...
I was so happy for my sister...hope she will enjoy herself in Taiwan..by this Sunday (23rd May 2010), her flight will be around 1pm from LD to KK. My brothers in KK will pick my sis at the airport. My twin sis flight to KL will be the next Monday morning (24th May 2010) around 6am...thats mean, my twin sis will have to be at the airport 2 hours earlier....at 4am.
I wish I was there also to send my twin sis to the airport....She will be in Taiwan until 28th May 2010...I was in KK already that time...means I can go to the airport on that day to fetch my twin sis....yahooo....I told my twin sis everything if she is in Taiwan.Hope she also can take a lot of photos there....
This Friday (21st May 2010), my school will be going to Taliwas for camping...there is no line for me to sms my twin sis...ohhhhh,so sad to think about this.I can't have a chance to meet my twin sis also.I wish I can send her to the airport on Sunday..but that time, I will be still in Taliwas...I will pray for my twin sister. Hope she will have a good and safe journey....

I'M GOING TO MISS YOU MY DEAR TWIN SISTER........CRISTINA...

YESTERDAY

2010-04-30T06:20:00.000+08:00

LOTS OF WORK...CALM DOWN

2010-04-30T05:28:00.000+08:00

Arrggghhhh...so many works I have to do and finish it.By tomorrow I have to do English meeting for English Workshop Phase I. After recess time, I have to handle kids for Kem Bestari Solat...
Then after that, goin back LD to my twin sis place.Still don't know what will be our plan dis weekend...
My exam paper not yet finish....hehehe.I knew I can finish it by next week.I wonder why I always do my work in a last minute...come on Len, don't be like this....wake up!!!
I have to list down all the work that I have to do...I do remember what I have to do,but if I write it down, I will always look at it and will remember...have to do a proper plan..

MY HIPPIES TEAM.....

2010-04-25T13:26:00.000+08:00

GAMES AT TELUK DARVEL...

AFTER THE GAME...

BEFORE THE GAME...MY TWIN SIS WERE NOT HERE.SHE WENT BACK HOME TO TAKE A BALL...

TODAY........

2010-04-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

Luckily, I don't have to go to school today....I became the Chief Judge for English Speech Competition for National Type Chinese School Lahad Datu and Kunak District Level for 2010. There were 5 judges including me and there were only 6 chinese schools including 1 school from Kunak took part in the competition.
After the competition, I had to gave overall comment about the competition. I was happy that everything went so well. I was nervous talked about the comments but felt glad that I can spoke out the weakness of the contestants. At least they knew their mistakes, so by next year, they will do better.I received certificate and souvenior. I was happy and proud to be the Chief Judge.I like the way this chinese school teachers prepared everything. They all prepared everything very well and the ceremony went well. We were given a breakfast then we all can go back. Me, Samsul, Kak Salina and Kak Linda went to Deli Delite for a drink.After that, I went for shopping....bought things that my twin sis asked me to.
Tonight, my team Hippis FC...will have our game and we will play about 2 hours at Dynason Fultsal Centre...and tomorrow...me and my twin sis will go to church....so glad that I can talked to MUM...asked her how she was doin..oh, I MISS YOU SO MUCH, MUM....its okay..tis May, I will spend much time with my family..can't wait to be with them........

ENGLISH LANGUAGE CARNIVAL

2010-04-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow (17th April 2010) will be Lahad Datu District English Language Carnival held in SM St. Dominic Lahad Datu.There will be a competition like Choral Speaking for secondary school, Public Speaking for secondary and primary school, Action Song and Story Telling for primary school.From my school, we only will take part in Story Telling Competition...and the contestant is Nurul Ainy Syafiqah Bte Abdul Rahman (Rahman and Dian's daughter)..she will represent our school with her story "Oh, I'm Late"..hope she will book a place coz she was so talented.

And tomorrow I will be busy with Public Speaking as I am the 'Pengurus Teknik' for primary school.Luckily Mdm. Kwan from SM.St. Dominic (Pengurus Teknik for secondary school) already prepared everything.This evening, I might have to go to SM. St. Dominic to look for the Public Speaking venue...but I think Mdm. Kwan can take over.I have to meet Azidah to give her a script for MC(master of the ceremony).She called me last nite asked if I can help her with the script. She search and found out on my blog that I once became the MC. How did she found out my blog?I wonder how...i will ask her later.I will help her with the script.She will finish her class around 6pm.

Now i'm waiting for my twin sister coming back from work around 5pm.Two weeks I haven't met my sis....i knew she miss me also....

MUM was fine...just that she miss both her twin daughter here in Lahad Datu...

HAPPY EASTER DAY

2010-04-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 years my family moved to KK...without realized so many things happened and changed...Lots of memories in LD....and I couldn't forget it even just a second...bad things happened..and yet,my family still stand strong facing this life...There's so many things that I couldn't explain happened to my family...I felt glad and happy to know things that others couldn't know and understand..It is true that there is other life that we didn't know...I just hope and pray...things will change...pray to be strong and face all the trouble...Pray do really help me calm myself...and make me feel fine and happy...No wonder why people always said....PRAY...coz pray do really help...
On Easter Day, our family watch "PASSION OF THE CHRIST"..its so sad to imagine how JESUS suffer just to safe human for all the sins that we done...
Today (Monday-5th April 2010)I applied for on-leave for Easter..last nite we took a bus went back to LD...coz my twin sis hev to work today....at 2pm, I will go back to Felda..and start teaching again tomorrow...I know MUM really miss our DAD.Two years already MUM didn't visit DAD's grave...and light a candle...Hope our DAD understand how we all been through...I'm really sure DAD knew what had happened....

WE MISS YOU DAD........
MAY GOD BLESS MY BELOVED FAMILY.......AMEN...

'TIL YOU DO ME RIGHT....

2009-10-22T11:19:00.000+08:00

My favourite song by After 7 entitled...'TIL YOU DO ME RIGHT....the lyric really touch me....sometimes we thought we had given the best...but it's not...two person in love should understand and care for each other no matter what........

'TIL YOU DO ME RIGHT - AFTER 7

I was in love with you

And gave my heart to you

I did my best to keep you satisfied

You took the love from me

And used it selfishly

You did not give back your Love to me at all

I gave the sun to you

You said it was too bright

I gave you diamond rings

You said they didn't shine

I gave my world to you

But you said it's not enough

What in the world could I have done

To make you be so rough

'Ttil you do me right

I don't even want to talk to you

I don't even want to hear you speak my name

'Til you do me right

Only wrong is gonna come to you

Nothin' good is gonna come 'til you change

Change your ways

Until you change your evil ways

Boy(suppose girl but I changed) I was there for you

Someone you could talk to

How could you just keep breakin' my heart

What did I do to you

To make you be so cruel

I don't understand why you've been so wrong

I tried to be your strength

You said I was too strong

I tried to compromise so

We could get along

I gave my love to you despite

Your evil ways

I guess it's clear to me there's only one thing left to say

There's a time when you know what you

Feel inside your heart

It's tellin' you that somethin' feels strange

You don't have to deny it

All you gotta do is just try it

You'll find our love grows

Stronger if you're willing to change

Written by Babyface, Melvin Edmonds, Kevon Edmonds

Lead vocals: Melvin Edmonds, Kevon Edmonds

PREPARATION FOR SK SAHABAT 16 'OPEN HOUSE' FOR RAYA

2009-10-14T10:13:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be our school's Open House for Raya. We had invited officers from Pejabat Pelajaran Lahad Datu, all headmasters and headmistress of schools from Tungku Zone....not forget all the student's parents and some important guest to make the ceremony more merrier.

Today we will be very busy make some preparations....like decorate the hall, backdrop and not performance from the students.There will be a lot of food tomorrow like rendang, nasi impit...lots more actually..Hari Raya menu...I think by tomorrow my stomach will be very full..

I will be the MC-juruacara majlis for tomorrow's Open House....have to prepare a text..or else I will not confident speak in front of all the guests...maybe the ceremony end around 11 a.m....

Today I have to submit my English exam paper for Year 2....the dateline was yesterday actually..hehehehe.

Last Saturday, my futsal team, Hippies won the game against team from Bio Diesel, Kg. Air and Twister....my position is striker and the last game against Twister, I became the goal keeper...we won with a score,4-1.

2007 MEMORIES...

2009-10-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

From left : Bunn, Fieda(moved to Kota Marudu), Julie, Tina(moved to Tawau), Ila and Me........

Front row sit: Yan, Anuwar, Cikgu Jumaadil(moved to Kuala Penyu) and

Cikgu Sumidi

We took this chance to pose again......

Me and Ila......(now moved to Raub, Pahang following her husband there)

Some of the teachers.....sit at the back is Aska Achbar-from left(moved to Pahang)

All teachers of SK SAHABAT 16 on 2007

MY DEAREST BLOG.......

2009-10-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

It's not that I don't want to write...just that the internet line is not good in school.Besides, I have to manage my time so I can go to the office and spent some minutes to check on my facebook.But I didn't use that time to write on my blog..coz there's so much in my facebook that I have to reply....I really wish I can write more in my blog...

Next week, I have to submit my English examination paper for Year 2.I have to prepare paper 1 and paper 2.I haven't decide which questions I want to choose....but I prepare already more than 10 activities book to search for the answers....

Tomorrow...I will play futsal with my twin sister and our team.The name of our team is 'Hippies'.My number is 12 and white is the colour of our shirt.I always play defend and sometimes as a goal keeper replacing my twin sister.Oh...my twin sister number is 6.Tomorrow our team will play against team from Kg. Air....at 7 p.m. at Kaka Futsal Centre...what will be the score?will our team win the game?just wait and see for the result tomorrow.

WHAT A HARD DAY!!!YET WE STILL THE CHAMPION!!!

2009-05-08T15:51:00.000+08:00

It was a very hard day for me last week where I have to handle so much thing. I was so much tension. I trained my kids for Choral Speaking Competition District Level. It held at my school. My school will organized this competition. And I'm the secretary. I have to train the kids and manage so many things. I was in such a hurry. The competition happened last Wednesday (06th May 2009) and I'm the chairperson.

Only 2 schools for primary schools catergory took part in this competition compare to last week there were 5 schools took part. It's because my school is 1 and a half hour journey from town and need a budget if the school wants to come. Me and my 3 other friends really worked hard to make sure our kids can memorize the script and can do the action with their voice suitable to tempo.

THANK GOD.........with so much hard work, my school became the CHAMPION for CHORAL SPEAKING COMPETITION FOR (PRIMARY SCHOOLS) DISTRICT LEVEL 2009. We won again for third time in a row.After this we will heading our way to Semporna for Tenggara Level. Hope my team will do the best and win. I'm so proud of my choral team. They have done their very best. I will try hard to 'touch up' their mistakes and win the Tenggara Level.

Yesterday, I went to Lahad Datu for Public Speaking Competition coz I am the "Pengurus Teknik". The competition didn't went so well. Lot's of comments, and it's my fault that I didn't stand to the decision. Many teachers angry at me.I just ignore them. But by next year, I have to prepare the best and come out with something very good as 'Pengurus Teknik'. I don't want to repeat again my mistakes.

p/s : Dear ELSA AND AMIEH : My choral team WON the competition. We are the champion for Lahad Datu District LeveL 2009...Thank GOD...

CHORAL SPEAKING

2009-04-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

Last week on Sunday,..26th May 2009 me and my twin sister went to visit our dear beloved FATHER'S grave...that is the first time we pay a visit since last year I went back for school holidays on November....I'm so much happy after 5 months didn't visit my FATHER, then finally me and my sister can visit my FATHER....thank GOD...Hope we will always visit FATHER'S grave and pray for him........

Tomorrow I will handle a meeting for Choral Speaking. My school will be the organizer for district level and I am the secretary....our "Pengurus Teknik" is not around so she asked me to take over handle everything...thank God she prepared everything already...I just have to make sure everything is fine........

Then I have to train the students everyday...after recess time and during afternoon from 2.30 p.m. till 5.00 p.m........Oh so hard for me....but I'm happy my colleagues do help me to train the kids......so far only my school participate with this Choral Speaking.......not sure other school will send their team.....

The competition will be on by next week.....on Wednesday, 06th May 2009.........and I will be the master of the ceremony (MC).......then on Thursday, 07th May 2009, I have to go down to Lahad Datu for Public Speaking competition coz I am the "Pengurus Teknik".........

Hope for the best tomorrow.

OUR 981 10th ANNIVERSARY REUNION

2009-02-22T01:44:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to all my 981 friends.....Finally we all celebrated our 10th anniversary even some of us couldn't make it to this reunion.
I will always remember this moment and it will always remain in my memories.I had download some pictures of the reunion from my friends facebook.

Before enter the karaoke room.

After our lunch........

Before goin back........

Our memory will last forever........

I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH........

FIRST ANNIVERSARY........

2009-02-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

It's been a year me and my family moved and lived in KK. Sometimes, I couldn't believe that I am now 'orang KK'....Every holidays, I will go back to KK or stay in LD with my twin sister.

But I'm happy now with my family's life.We all been so much happy now and me and my siblings are very close.We all shared our problems and we built more and much love than before.

Today, my school got a meeting for Teachers and Parents Association or PIBG....and I became the master of the ceremony again with my friend Maslinah.The meeting went very well....

My twin sister will come to my place here coz tomorrow her friend will engaged...But at the moment, my sister is at her friend's house.I will fetch her when she finish.Maybe around 9pm something.And tonight, me and my twin sister will watch football match.It's our favourite team.............LIVERPOOL....Hope our team will win the match.The match starts at around 11pm.

MY XMAS

2008-12-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

MERYY XMAS TO MY DEAR FRIENDS THAT CELEBRATE THIS SPECIAL OCCASION..First time we celebrated Xmas in KK.Kind of weird coz only me and my family there.On that Christmas morning, only me and my MOM went to church to pray.My elder brother went to church on Christmas eve.My young and yougest brother send me and MOM to church and they plan to go also but it was too late already.So they just wait us outside the church's gate.

We went back home and MOM cooked.....chicken soup, sup tulang,curry,mix vegetables,sapi masak kicap...Niza came around 6pm alone.Niza gave me a gift from Sarawak...it's a pencil box with Sarawakian craft and a food.We both chat and watch Transformers movie.I watched that movie over and over and still not boring to watch it again and again.........Then, that nite my cousins from Inanam came and we spend that time talking coz it's been a long time MOM didn't chat with them...It was a nice Christmas even only my friend Niza and my cousin came to my house that day.Hope by next year and year ahead,I will have many friends come to my house during Xmas day.

I went back on 28th December with my twins sis.She can't stay till New Year coz she got a lot of work to be done.So I accompany her and celebrate this new year with her.Actually, we both didn't celebrate.Just stay at home,pray and watch tv.Maybe MOM and other sibling will pray and prepare something tonite.Another year will come.So many things happen this year with me and my family.But I'm happy that my family is far from all the bad things.Oh..God..I wish thing is simple like that.But........I leave it all in a hands of God.

981 REUNION-10 YEARS (1998-2008)

2008-12-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

Finally there will be a reunion for 981 class.Im so much happy for this reunion.There is a plan before but tak menjadi...Now after 10 years, finally Elsa and others set a reunion for all of us 981 class.Can't wait for this reunion.Some might come and some may not able to come...But its okay if some can't make it.We all have our other commitment in life...

We all grow and lots of things changes.Our responsibility also changes.We have other commitment in life.So we have to concentrate and be the best for our responsibility and commitment...As for me,still single like this, sure a lot of fun stuff I can do...hehehehe..I'm happy with my other friends.Some married already,had a children.Oh, I'm so happy with them all eve I'm still mingle...

Can't wait to meet all my 981 friends.Our memories will last forever and ever till the end of the day.

ANUGERAH PERKHIDMATAN CEMERLANG (APC) for 2007

2008-11-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

I brought my sister to see me received my Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang (APC) for 2007 on that day...I want her to see me coz she is the only family member I got in Lahad Datu..If my dear father still around....He will be so proud of his daughter...I knew he was so proud.

Pose outside the hall after the ceremony.

My twin sister Cristina took a chance to pose with my certificate.

(Sijil Perkhidmatan Cemerlang)

(L-R) Rohana Maruji, Sajalinah Wasimin (teaching in SK Sepagaya now) and Me.

There are 4 of us received this APC from my school. The other one didn't came coz she had gone back to West Malaysia.

The ceremony was held in Sekolah Menengah Sains Lahad Datu on 28th August 2008 at 8.00 a.m. One of my good friend, David Sipilis Mathius of SK Tanjung Labian, Lahad Datu also received Anugerah Perkhidmatan Cemerlang (APC). I missed to take some photo with him coz he gone back early that day.

SCHOOL HOLIDAY

2008-11-14T17:29:00.000+08:00

Yes, it's school holiday!!!Hoooraayyyy....I felt so much happy. Never thought it's the end of school period and time for enjoy the holiday.When I think back again for what happen over this year in my school,OMG...so many things happen.A good and sad moment.The easy and the hardest things happened through this year in school. But what's on my mind is.......I have to face things that happen. I must get over it or else I will be in trouble...But so far, I'm so much happy, I can face everything and things goin very well.Thank GOD!!!

One of my closest friend in school,...Dg. Sarmila Sidek (Ila) will transfer to Pahang, following her husband who live and work there as a businessman. Hope things will be fine with you there and your new school....

Tomorrow I will goin back to KK early around 7 am with Ila.My twin sister also goin back with me. I know my sis do miss MOM so much and all our 4 brothers in KK. Twin sis never been far away from MOM, but since things that happened to my family, she have to stay here and work. I understand how sis felt, coz I also felt the same when I miss my family back in college life last time.MOM didn't know that sis is following me go back by tomorrow. Indeed MOM still didn't know that I will going back by tomorrow. But I think my bro Carlos, will tell MOM once he get back from work. Coz my bro Carlos called me today during my meeting if it's true I will goin back by next week. Coz last nite I told them will go back by next week. I couldn't lie to them when they asked seriously,..so I honestly told my bro that tomorrow I will go back....YESSS!!!

Hope we will have a safe journey back...
MAY GOD BLESS OUR JOURNEY..AMEN...

ALL SOULS DAY

2008-11-11T16:45:00.002+08:00

This is MY DEAR FATHER's grave. It was finished built on 28 November 2007

We held a prayer for my FATHER's grave on 02nd December 2007

I went to visit my father's grave on 01st of Nov for All Souls Day.It

was raining that day in the afternoon.I was so afraid and scared of meeting people that I don't want to see and face them.But my twin sister was so strong and I got my strength from her.We clean my father's grave and put in some beautiful flowers.But on that day we only gave father a yellow daisy. I really miss my father so very much.Everyone will miss the person they lost so much.I called my brother and tell him everything we done for father's grave.And MOM cried when I called her at nite.MOM alone have to face everything like this and MOM do miss her dear mother(my grandma).I understand how my MOM felt when she never met her mother for 33 years...So that nite MOM prepare everything to celebrate ALL SOULS DAY.Me and my twin sister, just lit some candles and have our prayers.

OUR CHORAL SPEAKING TEAM

2008-06-29T08:40:00.000+08:00

WITH OUR EX-STUDENTS IN SMS (SEKOLAH MENENGAH SAINS) LAHAD DATU.

FACES OF THE CHAMPION........

WE ARE THE CHAMPION........

FOR CHORAL SPEAKING COMPETITION

(PRIMARY SCHOOL)

INTER LAHAD DATU DISTRICT (FROM 2004,2005,2007 & 2008)

IN LOVE........

2008-05-02T07:08:00.000+08:00

It's not easy try to love someone.I thought it was so easy. I saw my friends falling in love,see how happy they are.Talking bout their loved one.I was jealous with them, but I was so happy coz I can share their happiness.I hope I can fall in love someday, just like them.

Finally, I had a chance to fall in love......to love someone.For sure I do love him so much.Honest and true with him.I want to know the feeling on loving someone.Now, I know the feeling already.But it's not as happy as I thought.Indeed it's so hard.I try so hard to love him, but in the end, I'm the one left alone with broken heart.He left me without saying goodbye.Left me alone wondering,what will happen to my life after this.So much hurt and pain to think bout this.But, I have to move on no matter how hard it is for me.I felt so shame to my family coz I thought I can be happy with him..........but in the end, it was just a dream.A dream that will never come true.Then I realize and woke up, I felt broken heart.It taught me so much in loving someone.I learned that it is not easy try to love someone.If you try to be true and honest with him, you never know if he will be true to you also.So, you just have to be careful in loving someone.

Now, I'm so much happy to know about love.Now, I'm alone.....single......hehehehe.....But its okay with that.I accept that with open heart.Now, have to be careful when try to love someone.......hehehe.It was a nice experience to love someone.Felt like in heaven when you are with someone you love.But be careful, don't dream too much coz you never know when you will wake up from the dream.I'm so much happy coz after what I have been through, I'm still stronger and tough.But deep inside my heart, only GOD knows how I really felt.

It's been more than a year after he left me.Still I haven't found a new one.I realize, so much things left undone.I have to do many things for my family.So many plan to do.Have to be careful when try to love someone.Search into his heart.Know him better.Take as much time with him.

I'm happy with my life now.Even sometimes, I felt lonely and need someone close to me.But what can I do?Still haven't found one.......but I'm not a desperate to find someone......hehehehe.Anyway, I'm happy with all my friends that already find their happiness with someone.........THANK GOD for everything.

PPSMI

2008-04-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

Next week, Jemaah Nazir will come over to my school for PPSMI(Pengajaran & Pembelajaran Sains & Matematik dalam Bahasa Inggeris)...............oh is a headache for me.I have to make a report on that.In fact, I have to do the report since January, and I haven't done anything yet.Oh, no!!!I have to do the report no matter what.Before next week, I must complete everything.For NAZIR, what most important is they want to look for documentation.So, I have to prepare well for this report.

I have to make a good plan and strategy to finish this report.Otherwise, I will be in big trouble and I don't know what to answer to the NAZIR in case they want to look over the file.This is what I have to do to finish the report.

1. Be cool and calm down, Len........

2. List down important things in the file that you should do.

3. Start making your report from January........

4. Give the exact date and day for the PPSMI meeting.

5. Check and make a letter.

6. Bind your report for every month.

7. In case you got problem and didn't understand, go and discuss with your

senior.

8. Check your report in case if you missed anything........then you can pass up your report.

p/s : Have to follow this step in case I want my report to be finish.

MY SCHOOL........

2008-03-12T11:11:00.000+08:00

I'm so proud with my school now........SK SAHABAT 16.A school that is far from town.....about 130km from Lahad Datu town.If you want to come here, you have to take private car and it will cost you about RM15.I've been teaching in this school for almost 7 years.Wow, I just couldn't believe that I have been teaching for 7 years now?

Oh,it reminds me of my friends.Angah wrote something for her comment on my blog.Im so much happy.Thanx angah.And not forget to you, Elsa.Always there for me.Angah reminds me of our sweet memory in Tandek, Kota Marudu.We woke up early around 5am and went to nearby river to have our bath.It's so funny coz we share the river with buffalo.Can you imagine, you use the water and the buffalo is just near there with you?Hehehehe.How can I forget that memory, Angah?It's still in my memory.We finished our bath and head our way back.On our journey back, Zube were stuck in a mud(that mud is actually the buffalo's najis)with her right leg inside.She tried hard to pull her leg out with her slipper but she couldn't.So, she just left her her slipper inside that mud.I couldn't bear to see her without any slipper.So, with a courage, I put my hand inside the mud and try to find her slipper.Oh, my God!When I write this story, my imagination is on that memory.So nice to think of it.I hold Zube slipper and brought it home.But then the same situation happen again.But this time in school in SK Tandek, Kota Marudu.We want to go back home after activity during night time.It was raining that night.Again Zube stuck her slipper in a mud(but this time is not the buffalo's najis).Then again, I pull her slipper out of the mud again.So funny to think again bout this.But because of that memory, Angah still remember me and didn't foget bout it.Thanx Angah.I will always remember our sweety memory in Tandek, Kota Marudu.

SCHOOL HOLIDAYS!

2008-03-12T09:54:00.000+08:00

It's school holidays for this week.But im stuck here in this school, in my apartment.Alone.My housemate already gone back to their hometown.Its coz im involved with Pilihanraya as 'Polling Clerk' (kerani mengundi) and then PTK examination by tomorrow.Haven't study anything.Maybe I just answer what I can answer.But still I hope to score with IV(highest mark).But if I didn't study how can I score?.....hehehehe.

I'm now in my balcony, write something for my blog after a long time.In a mean time, search for a question for PTK tomorrow.I used to be alone in this apartment with 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms.For sure Im in master bedroom.Oh, don't worry, tomorrow I will goin back to KK wit my friend, Ila.She will drive her car, Myvi.I think by night time we both will reach KK.

I do really miss my family.My family now moved to KK.It was on 19th February 2008.It was in such a hurry we decide to leave Lahad Datu and moved to KK.I just couldn't believe what has just happen and why we decide to move to KK.Indeed need to go far away from KK and far away from Sabah.Now left me here in Lahad Datu with my twin sister.Only two of us left here.My twin sister work in town and she live in a house with 2 other friends.I'm so worried bout my sister.She never been far away from my MOM.MOM worried so much about her.Will she be fine there living alone?MOM didnt worried much bout me living alone here in FELDA, coz she knew I have been alone since I was 18.That time I was in college to be a teacher.But at first,MOM also worried bout me.But as time passing by, now MOM used to it.All my family have gone to KK.Indeed, I just couldn't believe my hometown is now in KK.Time pass by so fast.

I want to write something in this blog why my family have moved to KK.But I think I need time to tell my story.It's a story that so hard to tell and write.It need courage to write the story.But I will write the story.Coz I want people to know and share my story.I'm happy with other people's life.But the story of my life is so hard to tell.But I want to move on and be strong.Coz my family depend their life on me.Their life is on my hand.I can't just let them slip away.I promised my FATHER already that no matter what, I will take care of my family.Evey nite, I'm on my knees pray that GOD will give me strength so I can face everything with open heart.And I'm so grateful coz I still move on even deep inside my heart it felt so much hurt.Only God knows how I feel.Someday, I will write my sadness story.

I MISS TO WRITE ON MY BLOGS

2007-10-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

So long I didn't write on my blog.I really miss it so much.I don't know why I didn't write again.I think I have to wake up again and realize I should write something.I need to.It's the way I can express my feeling,share what I thoughts.It's nice to write something here.Thanks to MY BEST FRIEND, ELSA for showing me on how to write in this blog. Such a new hobby for me. Guess I have to start all over again and write more and more. When I read Elsa's blog, I felt so happy. She really bring us into her life and share her nice and lovely story. Keep doing it 'Sa'. I like to read her blog. It's a story about life.To share that story is very interesting and nice. I guess I have to share my story also.
Yesterday, all teachers have a photo shoot. Indeed every year there's a photo shoot. Our new headmaster Mr. ZAID BIN DAS, will have his holiday from today until we will meet him again by next year.Tomorrow will be the last day before Hari Raya. One week holiday, feels like in heaven. Can enjoy life so much. Guess I just spend my time with my beloved family. Nothing much to do. All my good friends, are far away from me. So, I have to plan alone. Nothing to plan actually.Anyway, hope all the Muslims friend will have a safe and nice journey to their home (kampung).
School will start again on 22nd October 2007.It will be Second Semester Examination when they come back from holiday. I'm happy coz I already prepared the exam question. Thank God everything is under control.
This holiday, I think I have to manage everything very well with my family.May God bless all the people that I love. AMEN........

WE MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH........DAD

2007-03-04T15:18:00.001+08:00

I didn't write much for my blog recently.I think it's more than 4 months since I wrote my last page for my blog.I just don't know what to wrote.I do have a lot of story to share and to tell.But I just need a good time to write and I need an inspiration.But I still can write.The main reason is im too much lazy.Maybe coz of a lot of work waiting for me.
Last Friday........02nd March 2007 it's half year since father died.WE MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH, DAD.We might not see you around DAD, but we knew you always there for us all.You always around us.You listen, you hear and you talk to us in our dream.It's kinda hard to believe but it's true.I always dream about DAD.DAD did came into my dream and speak to me.So much happy to know that is always with me.But for sure we all miss DAD so very much.I was so very much happy.Couldn't really explain how hurt I am that every night I weep like a child.If only I could explain it all in a word but it's so hard to explain.Only those who lost someone they love before, they know how much it hurts inside.
Last Chinese New Year, me and my beloved family went to KK to my cousin's house in Inanam for his son and daughter First Communion Party.So sad that I couldn't spend my time for shopping there coz we arrived on 17th February 2007 and the going back to Lahad Datu again on 19th February 2007 coz there is another Communion Party in Lahad Datu.Sister felt so sad couldn't spend time for shopping there.Never mind SIS, later we plan again to KK.
MOM bought a lot of vegetables in Kundasang.Me and sister bought a pot of daisy flower. We put the flower inside our home and it was so nice.We reached home almost 9pm.Felt so tired but we are happy.Brother at home was much worried for our journey.
Thank GOD, we all are safe on our journey and everything went so good.

ALL SOULS DAY.....MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACEFULLY, DAD........

2006-11-03T02:48:00.000+08:00

It's the second month since our beloved father died last month(o2nd September)and today also is the day for ALL SOUL'S DAY.The exact date father died.I have to go back to lit a candle on father's grave.No matter what I have to go back since it's still school day.But I felt so happy I do have a chance to be with my beloved family and we all gather together went to father's grave.We clean and make sure everything is fine and great on father's grave.So sad and hurt this year Christmas gonna spend without our beloved father.I do hope and pray MOM will always be strong to face whatever happen on the future.I will try my very best take good care of my beloved family.Coz I thought I have a big responsible and I'm ready to accept it all.
Felt so hurt and seems like a glance to know father is not around.I still feel deep inside me something that still didn't come out.I need to shout it out.The burden of sadness is still inside me.I didn't let my beloved know about father.I don't have the courage to let him know.If he care for me much, sure I will let him know, but seems like it's not what I'm expecting, then I think I should keep it to myself.I will let him know someday.
My friend Elsa are now busy prepare for her wedding ceremony.I'm sure her wedding will be more cheerful,merrier and more grand.She always knew what is the best for her.I'm happy and glad for her and wish I will attend her glorious day........
I still remember Elsa dedicate a song and the video "Dance With My Father" by Luther Vandross.It's a lovely song,and 'Sa', I do love the song so very much.Thank you, thank you so much.On the same day also, I heard on the radio (TraXXFM), there is a listener dedicate the same song to all the listeners who lost their beloved father.Then I felt my heart pounding.I was so concentrate listening to the song and felt father was in front of me.His lovely face, smile and laugh.........Oh, God!I will always remember that.
It remind me again that I didn't spend much of my time with father before he died.I felt so hurt, sad and damn angry with that.But I know there is nothing I can do.I realize my mistakes and turn to MOM to make things clear.I have to take care MOM so much and our family.I promise no matter what I will always by MOM side.

p/s DAD.......MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE.I promise you DAD that I will take care MOM and our family.No matter what, I will try my very best to make everyhting fine.I pray for father heavenly to help me become a strong person and much in love for everyone.AMEN........

THANX DAD FOR BEING THERE FOR US!

2006-11-02T03:58:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time I didn't write something on my blog.It's because I'm now didn't have much time and all of my time I spent thinking bout my beloved family and lots of work to be done.But it didn't stop me from writing something to express my thoughts.Just that it took some time to write again.My friend Elsa sent me message why I didn't come online again and if I'm busy.I'm so sorry my friend for not coming online always.I will try hard to come online always and write more on this blog.
This week....on 02nd November(Thursday) is "All Souls Day" and it will be the first candle for my beloved FATHER.I have to go to DAD's grave.......pray for his soul to rest in peace.This coming Friday (03rd November) my school held a big HARI RAYA CELEBRATION for all the students and teachers.I'm sure this is going to be great.
I felt happy now coz to be very honest........I still felt my FATHER is just around me.I can feel him.I felt weird but I'm happy with that.MOM once dream about DAD.A dream that makes us believe that DAD is there for all of us.And I also believe in that.I felt strong now and sometimes I do talk alone..............it's like I'm talking with DAD.Sound strange and crazy but I believe DAD is there and listen to me.
Now, I'm so happy to face each and everything..............wherever we all go ........we all know DAD is there watching and care for all of us.

THANX DAD..............YOU ARE ALWAYS ON OUR HEART AND SOUL.
MISS YOU SO MUCH

THANX DAD FOR BEING THERE FOR US!

2006-11-02T03:58:00.001+08:00

2006-11-02T03:58:00.000+08:00

LIFE GOES ON........

2006-09-13T03:10:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a week we lost our father.I have to go and be in school.Have to be away from my beloved family again.We felt so lost without our beloved husband and father.No matter how sad and hurt my family felt after the lost of our beloved FATHER..........
PETRUS BIN RESI @ PETRUS BIN KEROUE..............we still have to be strong and keep it all in our heart.We do know that DAD died not because of some disease.When people jealous of you, they can do anything to see you can't move on with your life.Lots of my relatives keep on asking themselves and seems like they all didn't believe my DAD had passed away.It's like a dream.People keep on asking and wondering what really happened to FATHER.After they gave bath to father, my twin sister try to hold DAD's hand and found out on DAD's shirt, there is a blood!We all felt so surprised because there is no wound when they bath DAD, but how come there is a blood?We keep on asking about that.We can't open DAD's shirt because MOM didn't allow it.It's not good to open DAD's shirt after we put on his clothes.So, my brother just try to touch the blood to find if there is a wound or what.But, it's nothing there.MOM remind us that before DAD died and hold his breath for the last time,DAD hold his chest and push and soon after that, DAD died.Even now, I still remember DAD's face and how he hold his breath for the last time.I do miss you so much, DAD.Truly sorry if we are not really being there for you and seem didn't really care for you.I'm really sure you do understand your children so much.I still remember you told me how proud you are with all of us........your beloved childre.Thank you so much DAD for all your guidance, your support and most your tender loving care.

On Sunday(03rd September 2006)........at about 4.30p.m..........we went to graveyard to bury our beloved father at Mile 9, Jalan Silam, Lahad Datu.There are more than 20 cars ascot to the graveyard.Not many people knew the death of FATHER.Me and my family didn't inform to DAD's friends.They all just heard from other relatives.When they knew and heard about the death of DAD........they all was so shocked.They all felt they missed a good and a very kind person.They just couldn't accept the lost of our beloved FATHER.Everyone keep on talking about his kindness...........the way he treat people around him........when they all asked for a help, DAD was really there to help them, even DAD was not feeling well.For DAD, as long as he can help people, he will help them until he can't really help them.I'm so proud of you DAD.You are the "BEST DAD" we all ever had!

p/s WE ALL REALLY MISS YOU SO MUCH.......LIFE MUST GO ON!

MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE DAD........PETRUS BIN RESI@PETRUS BIN KEROUE

2006-09-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

I went back home on morning of Merdeka Day (31st August 2006) after received a phone call from my brother last night.It was early around 7 am.When I reached home, I was not so happy looking at DAD.The way DAD try to breath properly.I thought it's so easy but in fact, it's not that easy.I took care DAD that night (31st August 2006) until 4 a.m.I massage DAD's leg, help DAD to breathe properly..........I couldn't stand looking at DAD try to breathe properly.I just hope DAD will be fine but it's getting worse for DAD.I didn't went to school teaching.
On Friday night (01st September) one of 'BOMOH' came to my house and try to check and look at DAD's condition.My family was so surprised to know what the 'BOMOH' have just told us.The 'BOMOH' told my family that there is a people who felt so jealous on my family.They really hate my family since long time ago and they don't know how they want to hurt my family.Now, they really have a chance to do that and they got my DAD.They felt so jealous with my DAD.DAD was a very kind and generous person.Everyone admit his behaviour to everyone.DAD was so good and great.I'm so proud of him.There is a people who was so jealous on DAD of his success.It was too late to do anything.'BOMOH' will try to help anything he could.All we can do is pray that everything will be fine.
On the morning of Saturday (02nd September 2006).......I'm not so happy looking at DAD.His face expression looks very different.DAD was so pale.The way DAD's face makes me realize DAD can't stand any longer.I couldn't eat during lunch time looking at how bad DAD'S condition and health.On evening, DAD asked me to pick sister from work.Seems like DAD knows his condition and DAD really knows he didn't have much time again.So, DAD wait for me to pick my twin sister back from work.After that, we all gather around DAD and saw DAD lying there on his favourite chair.MOM and all of us (DAD'S children) gather around DAD and suddenly DAD fall asleep for the rest of his life.I just couldn't believe I lost my beloved father.DAD hold his breath for 3 days and couldn't sleep well.And now DAD can sleep well for all eternity.DAD gone at 6pm.MOM and my other siblings was around DAD that time.The way DAD died was so calm and peace..........We watched DAD hold his breath for the last time and died.I was so happy that DAD died in fron of MOM,my brothers,sister and me.We cried so loud and shout DAD's name.We accept for things that happened with DAD with open heart.Maybe GOD loves DAD more than us all.We all do miss you so much,DAD.
May your soul rest in peace.

DAD'S HEALTH WAS IN BAD SITUATION

2006-08-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

I received a phone call from my brother telling me the condition of DAD's health.I was so worried also but in a same time I thought that DAD's sickness can be fine easily.Before that,no matter how bad DAD got a problem with health, DAD seem can handle each and everything and DAD will doin fine after that.But the way my brother call me and telling me everything makes me thought that this is too serious to think.
I have to go back home by tomorrow to look after DAD and will take care for him.Last Saturday (26th August 2006), I sent and accompany DAD to the hospital.Seems like everything is going very fine with DAD.But today, the phone call makes me realize and makes me felt terrible about my DAD's health.This is too serious to think.My brother told me that DAD cant breath well and so hard for DAD to speak because DAD have to control his breathing.DAD didn't sleep very well until morning and all night DAD try to hold his breath and sleep on car's sofa.I just don't know what to say and I can't believe it.I must go back by tomorrow.

DANUM VALLEY CONSERVATION AREA

2006-08-24T05:30:00.000+08:00

Im so happy coz finally I have a chance to visit Danum Valley Conservation Area with my friends and students.I felt so happy coz this is my first time.So funny coz I was born and raised in Lahad Datu and never been to this place.Hahahahaha.......This activity is for Year 4 and 5 students.There are 44 of them (21 boys and 23 girls)........

We were there for 3 days from Friday (18th August 2006 until 20th August 2006).So nice to be in that place.This Danum Valley is the biggest reservation forest in Malaysia and the biggest in South East Asia.Many scientists and researches came to this place to search and make their observation on tree,animals and insects.I didn't have a chance to talk to one of the scientists even we all stay in a same hostel.Its because they are very busy doing their job.Some of them are still study.

Lots of activities we have done from jungle-tracking to swim.We swam at Segama River....which flow along the Danum Valley.The students are very happy there.They never saw this animal.........PIG or WILDBOAR......They was so surprised to see this animal coz they never saw it before at FELDA.But they were happy coz this is one of their experience........

The students have a chance to see the leeches......walk along jungle trail.....watching video.....watch birds......watch deer........They do enjoy themselves so much.....and so all the teachers involved.Luckily all the girls' teachers are single.So, we don't have to worry much on how to handle things specially when it comes to 'preparing food'.Everythings seems to be fine and Im so happy with what we had there.We also have a chance playing volleyball with Danum Valley staff.Some of them are rangers.

Im so happy with this activity and hope to have more great and fun activity in another place.